I quit

[bey]

*trigger for swears*

Fuck fuck
Fuck this shit
Fuck this fucked up life
I quit

I try and try and still I'm stuck
A stupid useless nothing fuck
I'm broken and shattered and can't be fixed
There's too much bullshit in the mix
But still I try and try and try
And let it hurt and even cry
I try so hard to just be me
Work my ass off at home and T
Think about things I don't want to know
Try my best to let it go
Say so many things I don't want to say
I try so hard to be ok

But when there's one thing that could make me break more
I drive two hours to her front door
It can't get worse than this. It can't.
And then I go and - - -
Fuck.

Fuck me, fuck everything
I'm so fucked
From the minute I was born

So fuck it all
Fuck this shit
Fuck this bullshit life
I quit.

 

[traveler]

ben -

maybe you need to take a break from trying so hard and just BE for a while. we all need a rest once in a while. i get the impulse to just shut down, but please don't quit entirely.

lee

 

[bey]

thanks lee
yeah, i will think about it. and no, i won't quit entirely.
ben