I need help

[J_210]

I need help. I'm going insane. I can't handle this. I'm not that strong.

Everyone's mad at me. I'm mean to them and I don't know why. They just annoy me so much sometimes. They get on my nerves and I just snap at them. I'm fighting with everyone.

I told my mother that I was raped and she doesn't believe me. She thinks I'm lying yet again. Trying to get attention. Do you know how much it hurts to finally tell someone that you were raped and have them call you a liar?! It hurts like fuckin hell!

Oh God! I'm crying! I'm such a baby! I gotta go before I break down.

J

 

[waters]

I believed my boyfriend when he told me he was raped. That is not something people tend to lie about. Unfortunately, the best people to turn to are not always the ones closest to you. Counseling is a good place to be heard and respected. Just being able to talk about it without being afraid of an emotional reaction is very good for you. This also seems like a good site to get some comfort.
Hang in there. Just starting to post anonymously is a good start.

 

[JeffNYC]

Dear J 210
It's horrible when people can't believe us. It;s their denial, and has nothing to do with us. My mother didn't believe me either about my father's raping me, and he kept doing it for years.
For me the hardest part has been learning to believe in myself.
I wish I could cry. I admire that you can. It's not something to be criticized: it's something to be proud of, that you can feel and express your feelings of hurt. I'm still so frozen that I can't cry, and can only barely feel sad.
Therapy, anti-depressants, and surrounding myself with believers and with nice people. That's what worked for me.
Keep posting, and keep believing.
Jeff

 

Originally posted by JeffNYC:
Dear J 210
It's horrible when people can't believe us. It;s their denial, and has nothing to do with us. My mother didn't believe me either about my father's raping me, and he kept doing it for years.
For me the hardest part has been learning to believe in myself.
I wish I could cry. I admire that you can. It's not something to be criticized: it's something to be proud of, that you can feel and express your feelings of hurt. I'm still so frozen that I can't cry, and can only barely feel sad.
Therapy, anti-depressants, and surrounding myself with believers and with nice people. That's what worked for me.
Keep posting, and keep believing.
Jeff

Jeff.

I have recently found out that my boyfriend has been sexually abuse by his father and is also unable to feel emotions. As i am not experianced and have no idea what being abused from a male perspective is, i would be very grateful if you could drop him a line at [email protected]
or me so i can try to understand and help him at [email protected]