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yur gay kiril. yu ore.
I hate you bkaz of you any fizikal touch.
scares me. I h8t you. if I am attracted to men.
but not all men does this mean I am gay?
if I don't want to talk to you. I am talking to malesurvivor
right now.
I need friends. look you cant t slap me c kay?
if you want you hit your mom bilie.
look I am not talking to you either!
if you need someone to talk to go to juniper school.
I don't live in Thompson.
and who is this Goran anyway?
I don't love you smila.
who does that ? bozna. go ahead you want to fuck each other go ahead...I don't care...your secret not mine!
zoran dad is a loser!
I will say what I want. he forced me to have sex you moron!!
you have 3 kids...alright so I want it ....I want to love
you and I want you to listen to my problems
I want someone to feel responsible and they want me to
beat you up! ??? what the fuck?
bozna is a piece of shit. you are a loser kiril
yea well...don't care I got to go now.
I deserve to have male-friends ck kiril and I don't want
guys to think I want sex. ...
may be. see you are gay.
fuck you!
( SMASH HER HEAD INTO THE CEMENT.
OVER AND OVER. UNTIL I TURN BILLIE INTO LIQUID,
DRAG HER FACE INTO THOMPSON)
this is a piece of crap! she hates men!
she likes laughing at mens penises ; like her mother.
her dad is a rapist all of them are.
I wish everyone knew what kind of piece of crap you
are bilile1 your mom is gay and she hates little goran.
...right. my name is James.
and bilie is shit like her uncle. and I don't want
this. why do ihave to come on here to do this?
why cant I do this...I wish I had a boxing buddy.
something ...work on my injuries.
im back bilile and I come
TO KILL YOU!!!! HAHAHAHAH HAHAHAHAH .
WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU ARE GOING UNCLE KIRIL.?
YOU COME TO TOSS YOUR DICK TO BILILE?
AND THERE IS BILLIE LOSER FATHER. FART AND LAUGH AT KIDS.
WHAT A USELESS TOOL! GO TO MOMMY BLAGOJ. GO TO MOMMY.
"I don't want to be gay , I need love my self ...BRING
GORAN OVER!!!"
"BUT daddy I don't want to go over".
YOU DONT HAVE TO....I AM NOT THAT PERSON ANY MORE.
NOW KIRIL CAN GO OVER...don't come back. Stay at bililes
....if you need to die...you better do something with your
mom...your mom don't like you kiril...she wol only likes
bilie. you and them can love all your sexual parts.
go make everyone uncomfortable! no family.
NO PROBLEM1 DONT NEED.
I hate you bkaz of you any fizikal touch.
scares me. I h8t you. if I am attracted to men.
but not all men does this mean I am gay?
if I don't want to talk to you. I am talking to malesurvivor
right now.
I need friends. look you cant t slap me c kay?
if you want you hit your mom bilie.
look I am not talking to you either!
if you need someone to talk to go to juniper school.
I don't live in Thompson.
and who is this Goran anyway?
I don't love you smila.
who does that ? bozna. go ahead you want to fuck each other go ahead...I don't care...your secret not mine!
zoran dad is a loser!
I will say what I want. he forced me to have sex you moron!!
you have 3 kids...alright so I want it ....I want to love
you and I want you to listen to my problems
I want someone to feel responsible and they want me to
beat you up! ??? what the fuck?
bozna is a piece of shit. you are a loser kiril
yea well...don't care I got to go now.
I deserve to have male-friends ck kiril and I don't want
guys to think I want sex. ...
may be. see you are gay.
fuck you!
( SMASH HER HEAD INTO THE CEMENT.
OVER AND OVER. UNTIL I TURN BILLIE INTO LIQUID,
DRAG HER FACE INTO THOMPSON)
this is a piece of crap! she hates men!
she likes laughing at mens penises ; like her mother.
her dad is a rapist all of them are.
I wish everyone knew what kind of piece of crap you
are bilile1 your mom is gay and she hates little goran.
...right. my name is James.
and bilie is shit like her uncle. and I don't want
this. why do ihave to come on here to do this?
why cant I do this...I wish I had a boxing buddy.
something ...work on my injuries.
im back bilile and I come
TO KILL YOU!!!! HAHAHAHAH HAHAHAHAH .
WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU ARE GOING UNCLE KIRIL.?
YOU COME TO TOSS YOUR DICK TO BILILE?
AND THERE IS BILLIE LOSER FATHER. FART AND LAUGH AT KIDS.
WHAT A USELESS TOOL! GO TO MOMMY BLAGOJ. GO TO MOMMY.
"I don't want to be gay , I need love my self ...BRING
GORAN OVER!!!"
"BUT daddy I don't want to go over".
YOU DONT HAVE TO....I AM NOT THAT PERSON ANY MORE.
NOW KIRIL CAN GO OVER...don't come back. Stay at bililes
....if you need to die...you better do something with your
mom...your mom don't like you kiril...she wol only likes
bilie. you and them can love all your sexual parts.
go make everyone uncomfortable! no family.
NO PROBLEM1 DONT NEED.
Sorry I didn't gay porn. watch gay porn.
hurry goran you have to eat. you. eat you.
goran my osrn my m n nme neam name I. this sucks
I cant concentrate iwhen ii want to talk ti get smacked l all
the time from bilie.
h she oul would cky dakt kirl take me nov vneve haga
I have to slow down. how do yo u I slow
down. how I do I slow. down my thoughts seem
fragmented. brolund is such a jerk.
GET A LIFE! I duno not a smart psychologist .
I hate thislan .. this. this.
so ...how I ave you go home. grade 6 chcien ehcej
ened to fel need to feel fe d need to feel
angry. yea. lonely. not as much.
lonely no. you are lonely and you need paretns
so fuck ya. any and what else. why do I neot get my own
penis. why is this. ...I don't have to let them in any more
I can do what I want gary
I need help. fjks;fjad;fjd;fjaf
? don't ..know. I hate hit this.
this sucks gary. I needed a dad.
I ss so . I need a dad too.
hmm cool so now what
I don't know lets cuddle.
cuddle wi would be alright
I just ....
I don't want sex w either.
I just wanted a friend.
I just wanted a dad. I just
wanted to tlak to someone without
dick coming int o me.
....you like lots of ...what
h not sex. so much. I haven't really in my body
kinda di d interpretation of ..... what???
I needed someone to feel safe with and not
always get smacked by everyone.
needed someone. please God ...I don't want too much.
I do want love. I know you cant do this for me.
I get it. why the fuck did I have to have such idiots
in my life?? this sucks.
goottta go.... the computer is sending me kisses
as saying goodbye for da day!!
alirght love me men. friends
friends on MALE SORVIVORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
hugs.
James
but I don't want to go yet....
hurry goran you have to eat. you. eat you.
goran my osrn my m n nme neam name I. this sucks
I cant concentrate iwhen ii want to talk ti get smacked l all
the time from bilie.
h she oul would cky dakt kirl take me nov vneve haga
I have to slow down. how do yo u I slow
down. how I do I slow. down my thoughts seem
fragmented. brolund is such a jerk.
GET A LIFE! I duno not a smart psychologist .
I hate thislan .. this. this.
so ...how I ave you go home. grade 6 chcien ehcej
ened to fel need to feel fe d need to feel
angry. yea. lonely. not as much.
lonely no. you are lonely and you need paretns
so fuck ya. any and what else. why do I neot get my own
penis. why is this. ...I don't have to let them in any more
I can do what I want gary
I need help. fjks;fjad;fjd;fjaf
? don't ..know. I hate hit this.
this sucks gary. I needed a dad.
I ss so . I need a dad too.
hmm cool so now what
I don't know lets cuddle.
cuddle wi would be alright
I just ....
I don't want sex w either.
I just wanted a friend.
I just wanted a dad. I just
wanted to tlak to someone without
dick coming int o me.
....you like lots of ...what
h not sex. so much. I haven't really in my body
kinda di d interpretation of ..... what???
I needed someone to feel safe with and not
always get smacked by everyone.
needed someone. please God ...I don't want too much.
I do want love. I know you cant do this for me.
I get it. why the fuck did I have to have such idiots
in my life?? this sucks.
goottta go.... the computer is sending me kisses
as saying goodbye for da day!!
alirght love me men. friends
friends on MALE SORVIVORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
hugs.
James
but I don't want to go yet....
nobody cares. nobody cares.
nobody cares. los. lost. lost. lost.
Hey Crystal! Thanks for the gift card.
Please tell me you didn't pay out of your pocket for this gift card?
crystal I dotn know I f I am gay. I want to be. but I don't get it.
sometimes I want sex. but ia ms scard last nght I think I had a changec.
and tammy wouls want to go bck to belguim club. I made her yunvur
I need dck dick but I dn don't want it. I don't get what I am going thru.
I don't want sex but it I am difficult . I wish I had buy guy men friends.
last ngi night I wante dto go into fame club just to see ind side.
gay people always made me feel safe and uncomftobale .
boy I love that language. I knmw my speelnig is not helping.
I needed a dad sorry you are having a hard time.
I wish I you didn't buy me that gift. I just don't want anyone to feel bad for me.
I just want to love but I immedialtey turn it into sex and don't want to
I am fucked up sometimes . I don't want others to have to feel things for me.
I just an wanted OKAY I GET IT YOUI WANT FRIENDS.
YOU WANT DADDY. WHAT ARE YOU TALKING TO BE ME FOR . AND WHY SHOULD
I CARE? I hav e my won problems. and I don't want to see youi anymore
I am not that inot goran. id ont want to know youir life. I just want to be fs
s adnfot too. see yu are not even wiritng properly. yu are like a kid.
why do ihave such a small dick. women don't like dicks that sumall.
neither do gfay.
smack. billie smacks bozna. bilie wants friends. billie needs mom and dad.
and you smila will pay your ares pcilal goran. where is school why dos
zoran have to be like this why do any of I us be ad
when will I see you goran? never mum I want to tellyou that I never hated
youi. they hated you. and I felt for what iver they need. all of a sudden
I want to fill my thougts of is itea. or this. I cant be arouind you smkiila
I d fi do kiril witll kill me. the doesn't want mbiell to be fae. he doesn't want
bilie to feel bad he doesn't want how does that
feel to have rage. sthity. iw ish I didn't awnt to be hungry for anyone.
I hate being quiet. everyone hateds me. ni way. I just want to see I love
yo and I don't want to wrry anymore I wish iddnt have to e feell bad.
I don't want to. he lawys bput dick in me and I have to swallow his semen.
you don't want to know this. I live with thie all the tiem.
don't touch me goran. yu ga fag. you are gay.
uhh. foran is gay everyone.
HAHAHAHAH.
goran is gay goran is gay goran is gay.
(alone in school, and recess.
wanting someen to talk to.
I don't know ....)
she looks at me ...
and she looks a t me.
and he is there and makes
sure I after they hit me that
I eat and wat eat.
and I make mom m e feel bad
I hated my mom.
I AM AKSIN OF THIS. I DONT KNOW YOU
AND I DONT ATN MY TOD. FMS TP THIS THC
THINKS. GORAN CANT THNK
GORAN ISNT ALLOED TOB E GOOD.
ORAN CANT BE. cn I can be good.
I dotn ned to hear this voices
I don't want to be any ton I don't nwa high cshol
I dnot be . down as gforan have to my
goran cant touch anyone
ggonra isn't allwoedtobe boy
dnt ist
FUCK AUTNE AND UCLE. THEY .SDFER
HOW DANT YOU LET THEM DEFEAT YOUIR OWN SOWN.
HOW YOU ANT LET THEM DO THIS TO YOUR OWN KID.
HOW. AND I WANT TO VE AOUR EHR AND ZORAN
HOW. CAN YOU DOT HIS..
...I C D O F.GE. DIT .W JE AER. DL SI C.
DL AFT GE. EKL ;;JK;DJ
EDKafam
hank you, I really appreciate it.
I don't go out of my way....thank you.
How did you find the movie?
I just thougt I want dick why do iwant this.
I want secrets. I want to keep helping them.
why . I don't think this is good. I watned my dad
. listen to juniper drive.
don't go there. they are very mental
I remember my mom asying this. I wasn't allowed to be arouind y mom
don't . ate. my ther to thin of you.
meri was told to the my mom. everyon ws. if I was good
I get a present. I get chocolate.
that is why I have a hard time with this. I remember that.
and my dad iddnt want any of theis. he just left.
the thing is I cant change that.
right. but I want to .
fuck.
no one to tlak to.
I feel like dancing u but my lfegs are huting.
I want a girlfrines but I am a worrid
everyoitme I want a girlfriend I feel like bilie is pulling y dad
. blank blanket put a blanket over him
so ish tie know ho who is talking.
goran cant know who I hes talking to
goran HTI BHIME BLIE
HIT HIM.
. CRYING oija boea.
when I hear .or want gay I turn into a gay.
person. I keep chaing my thouiknig.
I keep killing poepl
so I asy. who is goran who is he talking to
nobody. em eri
is my d sistr and she is most important
oer why do they do this6
wny why would they do this to liksd.
and my mom doesn't know what happened but kriil
is aware. and doenst igve to o two things
aobu ti.
this ..isn't good. where is gorna og gint o go
porn. he deserves more. these kids deserve more kiril.
you want no repsoswiblie.
I can see why you want to kil your family.
goran if I had authority over poliece and I wouidl say I woill take to to London
and iwill help you kill them.
you loset forty years of your life
KIL THEM OCVE OEVER
YOU DESERVE IT.
you have no home. no one . SUDDENTLY
I SEE AUNTS FACE.
WHO IS THAT GIRL ON FULL HOURS SHE IS BEARU
smack. YOU CANT SAY WOMEN HOT.
YOU LIKE BOYS!
bozna says.
goran is a fag.
goran is a fag.
my name isn't goran.
you do you don't know me.
you know chocolat
you want penisses not goran.
goran doesn't need you guys
goran is with me.
I am his guardian
who has a hard time spelling
and need love from other guys.
and doesn't want friends who want sex.
ho you are not to be allowe d to come near him.
or any ofther kid.
esp on malesurvivor.
so go awy
. Don't allow them to change you and don't let hatred take the place of love, that's all
i dont want to hurt anyne
I just want to love. it s.
not easy
nobody cares. los. lost. lost. lost.
Hey Crystal! Thanks for the gift card.
Please tell me you didn't pay out of your pocket for this gift card?
crystal I dotn know I f I am gay. I want to be. but I don't get it.
sometimes I want sex. but ia ms scard last nght I think I had a changec.
and tammy wouls want to go bck to belguim club. I made her yunvur
I need dck dick but I dn don't want it. I don't get what I am going thru.
I don't want sex but it I am difficult . I wish I had buy guy men friends.
last ngi night I wante dto go into fame club just to see ind side.
gay people always made me feel safe and uncomftobale .
boy I love that language. I knmw my speelnig is not helping.
I needed a dad sorry you are having a hard time.
I wish I you didn't buy me that gift. I just don't want anyone to feel bad for me.
I just want to love but I immedialtey turn it into sex and don't want to
I am fucked up sometimes . I don't want others to have to feel things for me.
I just an wanted OKAY I GET IT YOUI WANT FRIENDS.
YOU WANT DADDY. WHAT ARE YOU TALKING TO BE ME FOR . AND WHY SHOULD
I CARE? I hav e my won problems. and I don't want to see youi anymore
I am not that inot goran. id ont want to know youir life. I just want to be fs
s adnfot too. see yu are not even wiritng properly. yu are like a kid.
why do ihave such a small dick. women don't like dicks that sumall.
neither do gfay.
smack. billie smacks bozna. bilie wants friends. billie needs mom and dad.
and you smila will pay your ares pcilal goran. where is school why dos
zoran have to be like this why do any of I us be ad
when will I see you goran? never mum I want to tellyou that I never hated
youi. they hated you. and I felt for what iver they need. all of a sudden
I want to fill my thougts of is itea. or this. I cant be arouind you smkiila
I d fi do kiril witll kill me. the doesn't want mbiell to be fae. he doesn't want
bilie to feel bad he doesn't want how does that
feel to have rage. sthity. iw ish I didn't awnt to be hungry for anyone.
I hate being quiet. everyone hateds me. ni way. I just want to see I love
yo and I don't want to wrry anymore I wish iddnt have to e feell bad.
I don't want to. he lawys bput dick in me and I have to swallow his semen.
you don't want to know this. I live with thie all the tiem.
don't touch me goran. yu ga fag. you are gay.
uhh. foran is gay everyone.
HAHAHAHAH.
goran is gay goran is gay goran is gay.
(alone in school, and recess.
wanting someen to talk to.
I don't know ....)
she looks at me ...
and she looks a t me.
and he is there and makes
sure I after they hit me that
I eat and wat eat.
and I make mom m e feel bad
I hated my mom.
I AM AKSIN OF THIS. I DONT KNOW YOU
AND I DONT ATN MY TOD. FMS TP THIS THC
THINKS. GORAN CANT THNK
GORAN ISNT ALLOED TOB E GOOD.
ORAN CANT BE. cn I can be good.
I dotn ned to hear this voices
I don't want to be any ton I don't nwa high cshol
I dnot be . down as gforan have to my
goran cant touch anyone
ggonra isn't allwoedtobe boy
dnt ist
FUCK AUTNE AND UCLE. THEY .SDFER
HOW DANT YOU LET THEM DEFEAT YOUIR OWN SOWN.
HOW YOU ANT LET THEM DO THIS TO YOUR OWN KID.
HOW. AND I WANT TO VE AOUR EHR AND ZORAN
HOW. CAN YOU DOT HIS..
...I C D O F.GE. DIT .W JE AER. DL SI C.
DL AFT GE. EKL ;;JK;DJ
EDKafam
hank you, I really appreciate it.
I don't go out of my way....thank you.
How did you find the movie?
I just thougt I want dick why do iwant this.
I want secrets. I want to keep helping them.
why . I don't think this is good. I watned my dad
. listen to juniper drive.
don't go there. they are very mental
I remember my mom asying this. I wasn't allowed to be arouind y mom
don't . ate. my ther to thin of you.
meri was told to the my mom. everyon ws. if I was good
I get a present. I get chocolate.
that is why I have a hard time with this. I remember that.
and my dad iddnt want any of theis. he just left.
the thing is I cant change that.
right. but I want to .
fuck.
no one to tlak to.
I feel like dancing u but my lfegs are huting.
I want a girlfrines but I am a worrid
everyoitme I want a girlfriend I feel like bilie is pulling y dad
. blank blanket put a blanket over him
so ish tie know ho who is talking.
goran cant know who I hes talking to
goran HTI BHIME BLIE
HIT HIM.
. CRYING oija boea.
when I hear .or want gay I turn into a gay.
person. I keep chaing my thouiknig.
I keep killing poepl
so I asy. who is goran who is he talking to
nobody. em eri
is my d sistr and she is most important
oer why do they do this6
wny why would they do this to liksd.
and my mom doesn't know what happened but kriil
is aware. and doenst igve to o two things
aobu ti.
this ..isn't good. where is gorna og gint o go
porn. he deserves more. these kids deserve more kiril.
you want no repsoswiblie.
I can see why you want to kil your family.
goran if I had authority over poliece and I wouidl say I woill take to to London
and iwill help you kill them.
you loset forty years of your life
KIL THEM OCVE OEVER
YOU DESERVE IT.
you have no home. no one . SUDDENTLY
I SEE AUNTS FACE.
WHO IS THAT GIRL ON FULL HOURS SHE IS BEARU
smack. YOU CANT SAY WOMEN HOT.
YOU LIKE BOYS!
bozna says.
goran is a fag.
goran is a fag.
my name isn't goran.
you do you don't know me.
you know chocolat
you want penisses not goran.
goran doesn't need you guys
goran is with me.
I am his guardian
who has a hard time spelling
and need love from other guys.
and doesn't want friends who want sex.
ho you are not to be allowe d to come near him.
or any ofther kid.
esp on malesurvivor.
so go awy
. Don't allow them to change you and don't let hatred take the place of love, that's all
i dont want to hurt anyne
I just want to love. it s.
not easy
I want to learn why I eat what I eat.
I have this problem that once I start feeling lonely.
(and this is always at 8pm, 9pm, before bedtime)
I ....I stuff. I don't stop.! my mind imagines cookies.
I am sorry. I shouldn't be but my uncle always slaps me
calling me stupid! This is how I cope.
I just don't . ( what are you asking from us?)
dad. family. something worth living for.
fuck. I need family. I needed a dad.
I cant look at me.
(what is ...)
where were you?
I cant look outside . I cant look at my dd.
fuck losers. I try to.
(try to what?
be! me! ? .
I had to watch my uncle fuck me.
(this is too heavy for us)
I I get this stuffing my face with his appendage.
I don't like me. I don't want this.
all I think of is him. but if I don't eat his food.
bozna will stare at me.
I was going to write this big thing abouit what I put my
mother through because they hated her. dad too.
I have a hard time looking at this thing I am typing
I have a real hard time concentrating. my thinking.
I have to be a good boy..
(what am I feeling ?
RAGE!(why?..
BECAUSE MY AUNT HAS ME HATE .
( I THINK I NEED TO STOP)
I WANTED SOMETHING , NOT SEX. MY GRAND PARENTS ASKED ME IF I LIKE MY DAD.
I IDDNT WANT TO TALK. I WAS TERRIFIED.
(THIS SHOULDNT HAPPEN TO KIDS.)
NO KIDDING!( sorry I didn't see I had the caps on.)
I eat. I feel god. or..
(you suck goran.)- see I don't want this. I don't want to eat for everybody. I want to educate me. I
(have no home. and I have to figure this out by my self.
my dad wont help he helps billie and meri.
zoran cant help. I don't know who to talk to. I am scared I will kill someone.
(you know if you did that you would get in jail)
yea. but I they I am in jail. I feel like they are predators or I
feel I don't know who I am and where I am going.
(what do I see?)
I feel like I am special.
(what ?)
I need to forget this. I feel I can only talk so much.
look at the guy to my right is he ... hate you goran.
I hate you. that is what I feel or I feel
how do people do this? I hate this shit. I hate it that
I eat . my brain is there.
t . Bob says this is regressed. I don't get it.
I wish all I want . wont live elsewhere.
I just want .
I don't want them. and little g shuldnt
I don't want goran gong back anymore.
you wont be his dad. you are sick. right Brenda?
I needed love not this . this is sex
you don't know any thing. personalities
I don't know anything bililie gets to have it.
shame on them. and youi point me that I make shit up.
bozna makes shtit up , she is gay.
so what ? you are not my dad. never.
now I get my rage. I get it because you want to pretend.
you wants.
this keep going and going. it doesn't get better.
how does this b get better. I don't want to eat.
I don't want them. I don't want to see.
I hate me. I don't want to hate me. I was going to put this
in to a new topic. but I feel dumb? I feel
that isn't the what ever t hinks. billie is dumb and I am
listening to them , and he waits for....them to hate me.
or buy me my dad would be . m l me li ke this
is your dad . that is what bozna did. hwy why
cant God have this o or fix this. why do the children
or me have to go through this. now I get it I am not even
alive or I didn't have a childhood. I have to do this all
on my own and it is frightening.
I get it. but I cant make people feel shitty.
How does my brain do this? I don't want others to feel
anything good. no I don't want you. you are not meri.
that is right!
I am not any of them. Enmeshing is disgusting.
YOu know fuck all billie. I am not sorry1
That feels good. Very empowering. I hate them.
I am not a girl. I am not bad. bozna is bad. bozna
can eat. I will never eat that shit1 fuck that.
you cant tell me that. I am not you. and blagoj isn't my
dad. fuck the r.c.m.p. they don't want to press charges
fuck it. I can live. your mom is absolute garbage I and I
will never acknowledge you . you or zoran .
I am an orphan and . have
nobody to lta taolk to.
I am okay. I don't need you. I need to find out how
to concentrate and to listen to the good things in me.
not you! you are not bad goran , never were. don't listen
to them they are sick.! I don't have to listen to my grandparents. They don't know anything. blagoj is stupid!
NOt me. I don't need to have anyone to feel anything.
I don't have to change for anyone and nobody has to change for anyone. I don't have to be anything to anybody.
I was always a good boy. billies mom can scare the shit out of her kids.
I got to just be better to me and. then I can see that nobody around me has anything to do with this shit that is in my head
cool! so nobody has anything to do with the abuse or the voices in me right now.
Yes!
and I don't have to care. never did!
NO! I don't have to worry.
NO!
just move on .
yea.!
but it wont be easy.
I don't want.
I have this problem that once I start feeling lonely.
(and this is always at 8pm, 9pm, before bedtime)
I ....I stuff. I don't stop.! my mind imagines cookies.
I am sorry. I shouldn't be but my uncle always slaps me
calling me stupid! This is how I cope.
I just don't . ( what are you asking from us?)
dad. family. something worth living for.
fuck. I need family. I needed a dad.
I cant look at me.
(what is ...)
where were you?
I cant look outside . I cant look at my dd.
fuck losers. I try to.
(try to what?
be! me! ? .
I had to watch my uncle fuck me.
(this is too heavy for us)
I I get this stuffing my face with his appendage.
I don't like me. I don't want this.
all I think of is him. but if I don't eat his food.
bozna will stare at me.
I was going to write this big thing abouit what I put my
mother through because they hated her. dad too.
I have a hard time looking at this thing I am typing
I have a real hard time concentrating. my thinking.
I have to be a good boy..
(what am I feeling ?
RAGE!(why?..
BECAUSE MY AUNT HAS ME HATE .
( I THINK I NEED TO STOP)
I WANTED SOMETHING , NOT SEX. MY GRAND PARENTS ASKED ME IF I LIKE MY DAD.
I IDDNT WANT TO TALK. I WAS TERRIFIED.
(THIS SHOULDNT HAPPEN TO KIDS.)
NO KIDDING!( sorry I didn't see I had the caps on.)
I eat. I feel god. or..
(you suck goran.)- see I don't want this. I don't want to eat for everybody. I want to educate me. I
(have no home. and I have to figure this out by my self.
my dad wont help he helps billie and meri.
zoran cant help. I don't know who to talk to. I am scared I will kill someone.
(you know if you did that you would get in jail)
yea. but I they I am in jail. I feel like they are predators or I
feel I don't know who I am and where I am going.
(what do I see?)
I feel like I am special.
(what ?)
I need to forget this. I feel I can only talk so much.
look at the guy to my right is he ... hate you goran.
I hate you. that is what I feel or I feel
how do people do this? I hate this shit. I hate it that
I eat . my brain is there.
t . Bob says this is regressed. I don't get it.
I wish all I want . wont live elsewhere.
I just want .
I don't want them. and little g shuldnt
I don't want goran gong back anymore.
you wont be his dad. you are sick. right Brenda?
I needed love not this . this is sex
you don't know any thing. personalities
I don't know anything bililie gets to have it.
shame on them. and youi point me that I make shit up.
bozna makes shtit up , she is gay.
so what ? you are not my dad. never.
now I get my rage. I get it because you want to pretend.
you wants.
this keep going and going. it doesn't get better.
how does this b get better. I don't want to eat.
I don't want them. I don't want to see.
I hate me. I don't want to hate me. I was going to put this
in to a new topic. but I feel dumb? I feel
that isn't the what ever t hinks. billie is dumb and I am
listening to them , and he waits for....them to hate me.
or buy me my dad would be . m l me li ke this
is your dad . that is what bozna did. hwy why
cant God have this o or fix this. why do the children
or me have to go through this. now I get it I am not even
alive or I didn't have a childhood. I have to do this all
on my own and it is frightening.
I get it. but I cant make people feel shitty.
How does my brain do this? I don't want others to feel
anything good. no I don't want you. you are not meri.
that is right!
I am not any of them. Enmeshing is disgusting.
YOu know fuck all billie. I am not sorry1
That feels good. Very empowering. I hate them.
I am not a girl. I am not bad. bozna is bad. bozna
can eat. I will never eat that shit1 fuck that.
you cant tell me that. I am not you. and blagoj isn't my
dad. fuck the r.c.m.p. they don't want to press charges
fuck it. I can live. your mom is absolute garbage I and I
will never acknowledge you . you or zoran .
I am an orphan and . have
nobody to lta taolk to.
I am okay. I don't need you. I need to find out how
to concentrate and to listen to the good things in me.
not you! you are not bad goran , never were. don't listen
to them they are sick.! I don't have to listen to my grandparents. They don't know anything. blagoj is stupid!
NOt me. I don't need to have anyone to feel anything.
I don't have to change for anyone and nobody has to change for anyone. I don't have to be anything to anybody.
I was always a good boy. billies mom can scare the shit out of her kids.
I got to just be better to me and. then I can see that nobody around me has anything to do with this shit that is in my head
cool! so nobody has anything to do with the abuse or the voices in me right now.
Yes!
and I don't have to care. never did!
NO! I don't have to worry.
NO!
just move on .
yea.!
but it wont be easy.
I don't want.
shit. my dad wants me to talk,
....he sits at my bedroom
and waits for me not to say a word!
"I wont be good dad." my dad wants me to feel him.
and then I laugh at me. I laughed all the time at my penis.
I laughed all the time.
I wish to not eat. I don't want to stuff my mouth with food or beverages
or gum and everything.
I don't know how I will do this. I don't think I fully grown.
my dad wants me to be little
so HE CAN BE THE MAN!
no not in Thompson. don't tell goran to.
don't tell!no not in Thompson. don't tell goran to.
don't tell!
I have to . I have to . nicky didn't like me.
I was so sensitive. I had to take shit.
Thompson. I had to take . women, girls didn't like me.
how do I forgive?
I keep wanting to see my mother.
it seemed he would treat me and then when I wanted sugar...
I see me reaching for his crotch , he would slap me. or
slap my hand.
. suddenly I saw bozna.
what the hell?
you cant say anything , kay ? says meri.
I thought you were my dad.
24 hours I don't know . all I remember is
.....................................
Thompson. photograph.
hated my mother and didn't like me.
but I ol loved them.
83. I remember them.
I . want to act out . to watch some porn.
it is the thought of a man`s appendage.
I can be anyone. I don't
want this. feel frustrated. don't like my dad
and don't like me. and ...
I am no his the bed. I am supposed to like my dad
....but my dad isn't my dad. my uncle likes saying this.
he says you like boys. you like ... and I don't know I just said nothing.
I was scared of billie.
an....d ...that is t when I say fuck I will die.
and that is why Thompson is in ..... zoran. why didn't zoran like me.?
h why did nobody like me?
I don't want to talk. ? I do.
I am not allowed to. I need help.
what do I do? feel. feel what .....l.a. hotel.
alcohol , guy from Holland. I want friends.
and I turn off. I don't want to talk.
I do.
confusing. I feel stress in me .
I was just talking to Cris in my head. I haven't spoken to him
in a couple years. he is a personal trainer.
schizo is not fun! lonely? . yea.
greedy ? is it greedy to want someone? to talk to ?
this is ff....I cant think of the word and billie hits me.
"you are stupid"!
I black out! I feel outraged at her! so I got to beat her up.
my dad wouldn't let me!
so. I can easily laugh and want to end me .
lonely. needed someone to help me. need to fix.
they want to think everyone else needs fixing.
shitty people. im tired. if I don't do this I will think of feeding me
or thoughts of dicks. help me ....
I feel I need to look at people. bozna.
HATE IH HER. she is a bitch. why would they do this?
they want me to kill her.
how can I not want to write this on social media.
they don't want this. why do I have to care?
my dad is a loser! I wanted to live.
my grandma couldn't let me go. she wanted me to stay and
they made me feel needed , like I was special.
....then it his penis. he wants me to talk to him.
my dad would tell me to go . some dad.
I feel abandoned and left for dinner or filth.
I hated me. I hated be me. I hated fox. Thompson.
this sucks to do this all by myself.
this is annoying. I hate this. I have no one.
friends. she would laugh at me.
I have a hard time looking. at billies mom .
she isn't here. so. it still sucks. it still .
when I cant be get me. when I cant be me ....I give in and
want or they want me to suck dick.
oooh. kay I got it. but I am still......scared
because I haven't processed the fear of going to there house.
I my feeling alone is in 1983 not NOW.
if I gave in....then ....someone ,,, can someone just come in me and start taking
over my thoughts?
this is not fun. I am scared of bilie. I don't like this.
I am tired. w
h y no ot giv them the sex.
let them touch him let them die. let them die let them die
let them die you will never be a good man kiril.
never. ou you are a shitty shitty person.
not a man. I am special for giving blowjobs. you are a fag.
gay men are nice you are shit! this sucks I still need a dad
and this will never get better.
what the fuck? why doesn't billie give her dad blowjobs?
why don't they? you cant answer that. you are jealous
of us. that is what meri says.. o d don't have to listen
that isn't easy. I don't want thi. how do I not care, not give in
and not think of them ....and g yet concentrate on the emotion?
this sucks this really, really sucks! I don't want to touch me.
That is why I don't want to masturbate . I want to change me.
How tto to I change me? how do I change.
I can not do this all , nowwwwwwwwwww.
fuckin freaks!
I don't know if I should send this to psg.
probably wont be a good idea.
I don't want sugar!!!
I don't want this.
I don't want dick!
I don't want dad. I don't want him
I don't want to see him ever.
please god b help
I don't want this.
I don't want dick!
I don't want dad. I don't want him
I don't want to see him ever.
please god b help me!
this isn't greedy. I hate it . I like comedy and I don't want to
care about them. but I don't want to hate for anyone!
I hate this
I hate this
....he sits at my bedroom
and waits for me not to say a word!
"I wont be good dad." my dad wants me to feel him.
and then I laugh at me. I laughed all the time at my penis.
I laughed all the time.
I wish to not eat. I don't want to stuff my mouth with food or beverages
or gum and everything.
I don't know how I will do this. I don't think I fully grown.
my dad wants me to be little
so HE CAN BE THE MAN!
no not in Thompson. don't tell goran to.
don't tell!no not in Thompson. don't tell goran to.
don't tell!
I have to . I have to . nicky didn't like me.
I was so sensitive. I had to take shit.
Thompson. I had to take . women, girls didn't like me.
how do I forgive?
I keep wanting to see my mother.
it seemed he would treat me and then when I wanted sugar...
I see me reaching for his crotch , he would slap me. or
slap my hand.
. suddenly I saw bozna.
what the hell?
you cant say anything , kay ? says meri.
I thought you were my dad.
24 hours I don't know . all I remember is
.....................................
Thompson. photograph.
hated my mother and didn't like me.
but I ol loved them.
83. I remember them.
I . want to act out . to watch some porn.
it is the thought of a man`s appendage.
I can be anyone. I don't
want this. feel frustrated. don't like my dad
and don't like me. and ...
I am no his the bed. I am supposed to like my dad
....but my dad isn't my dad. my uncle likes saying this.
he says you like boys. you like ... and I don't know I just said nothing.
I was scared of billie.
an....d ...that is t when I say fuck I will die.
and that is why Thompson is in ..... zoran. why didn't zoran like me.?
h why did nobody like me?
I don't want to talk. ? I do.
I am not allowed to. I need help.
what do I do? feel. feel what .....l.a. hotel.
alcohol , guy from Holland. I want friends.
and I turn off. I don't want to talk.
I do.
confusing. I feel stress in me .
I was just talking to Cris in my head. I haven't spoken to him
in a couple years. he is a personal trainer.
schizo is not fun! lonely? . yea.
greedy ? is it greedy to want someone? to talk to ?
this is ff....I cant think of the word and billie hits me.
"you are stupid"!
I black out! I feel outraged at her! so I got to beat her up.
my dad wouldn't let me!
so. I can easily laugh and want to end me .
lonely. needed someone to help me. need to fix.
they want to think everyone else needs fixing.
shitty people. im tired. if I don't do this I will think of feeding me
or thoughts of dicks. help me ....
I feel I need to look at people. bozna.
HATE IH HER. she is a bitch. why would they do this?
they want me to kill her.
how can I not want to write this on social media.
they don't want this. why do I have to care?
my dad is a loser! I wanted to live.
my grandma couldn't let me go. she wanted me to stay and
they made me feel needed , like I was special.
....then it his penis. he wants me to talk to him.
my dad would tell me to go . some dad.
I feel abandoned and left for dinner or filth.
I hated me. I hated be me. I hated fox. Thompson.
this sucks to do this all by myself.
this is annoying. I hate this. I have no one.
friends. she would laugh at me.
I have a hard time looking. at billies mom .
she isn't here. so. it still sucks. it still .
when I cant be get me. when I cant be me ....I give in and
want or they want me to suck dick.
oooh. kay I got it. but I am still......scared
because I haven't processed the fear of going to there house.
I my feeling alone is in 1983 not NOW.
if I gave in....then ....someone ,,, can someone just come in me and start taking
over my thoughts?
this is not fun. I am scared of bilie. I don't like this.
I am tired. w
h y no ot giv them the sex.
let them touch him let them die. let them die let them die
let them die you will never be a good man kiril.
never. ou you are a shitty shitty person.
not a man. I am special for giving blowjobs. you are a fag.
gay men are nice you are shit! this sucks I still need a dad
and this will never get better.
what the fuck? why doesn't billie give her dad blowjobs?
why don't they? you cant answer that. you are jealous
of us. that is what meri says.. o d don't have to listen
that isn't easy. I don't want thi. how do I not care, not give in
and not think of them ....and g yet concentrate on the emotion?
this sucks this really, really sucks! I don't want to touch me.
That is why I don't want to masturbate . I want to change me.
How tto to I change me? how do I change.
I can not do this all , nowwwwwwwwwww.
fuckin freaks!
I don't know if I should send this to psg.
probably wont be a good idea.
I don't want sugar!!!
I don't want this.
I don't want dick!
I don't want dad. I don't want him
I don't want to see him ever.
please god b help
I don't want this.
I don't want dick!
I don't want dad. I don't want him
I don't want to see him ever.
please god b help me!
this isn't greedy. I hate it . I like comedy and I don't want to
care about them. but I don't want to hate for anyone!
I hate this
I hate this
Texas howdy Sterling.
Well here we are trying to heal our inner child. Each in his own way in heart, mind, body & soul.
Will we ever get the peace & serenity in our lives that we so richly deserve?
Here we are in the Christmas season. Celebrating the birth of a special boy.
So my Canadian fraternal brother, in the spirit of the season,
I wish you a Blessed & safe Christmas.
Take care, be safe, be careful & above all be kind & gentle on yourself.
Wishing you well in healing.
"P will take that lost boys hand, and I will bring him out from the depths of darkness, into the sunshine, forever into eternity." As he is me.
Pete..Irishmoose/
Well here we are trying to heal our inner child. Each in his own way in heart, mind, body & soul.
Will we ever get the peace & serenity in our lives that we so richly deserve?
Here we are in the Christmas season. Celebrating the birth of a special boy.
So my Canadian fraternal brother, in the spirit of the season,
I wish you a Blessed & safe Christmas.
Take care, be safe, be careful & above all be kind & gentle on yourself.
Wishing you well in healing.
"P will take that lost boys hand, and I will bring him out from the depths of darkness, into the sunshine, forever into eternity." As he is me.
Pete..Irishmoose/
relax. I haven't gu fucked anyone!
how is xmas mel?
so w everyone cares I that I am gay.
I hate the word. I cant stand it.
I just binged on choc. chip cookies.
I hate her. why do I hate her?
I never had anyone , got get over her.
you don't need them.
I wish I had someone e when then. s omeone.
I am not even checking out these posts.
feel shitty. I don't have much time.
I don't want food. but it is the like them I dn don't
make sense bc I a whaekd a waked .all the time
sex food sex s ffood. I was trying to be in the feeling
after I bought this unhealthy stuff waiting for a bus.
and it ...I was rageing. I have a lot of rage.
I don't have any self-esteem. I seen Jared while he was
changing. he is hot. and he is hung
and I don't have a chance. he might just be a nice guy too.
I don't want to seduce a guy or attempt with one who is STRAIGHT!
...anyway, I have a lot of issues. I have schizo. I talk
alone. I have no one with me. it ...is a tool I guess.
sugar is a way to numb. but it doesn't work esp.
when I cant compete with these guys and if I want to date a guy who is athletic. good luck!!
...this is guy is h is ma amazing. lucky to look.
I don't check out guys in the shower either.
I don't do ...that I...now I would like to see bilie in the
Octagan. zoran too. all of em.!
my that bitch saw my mom and I cant see her. she loves them
anyway. I hate it when I just want to give in. or
something. this sucks. I have no self esteem bc I he
hates e me. they all do. and they got a way with it.
I want to call them and ...sy a sy
what wouy to you do this. ? why would you make shit yp up?
why? why do this t stuff? do t you now how ti f feels
to hate. I hate hating. I hate it! I have no home
and no one to talk to. I have these internet lines
and thea a that ...I have a crisis line I hate I when they
ask what brought on these feelings?
James do you have any thoughts of suicide? fuck.
two questions I hate being asked. ....listen.
I just want to someone to listen. to care.
vote for me to get my shit out. not these textbook
stuff...I am op pissed off. that is not my father.
I ...get knew I.d. in a couple weeks.
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at least one guy likes me. but thing Is I am afraid of
falling in love I with me. wtf.
I know. I need help. and today I think I flirted with a girl
where I volunteer...but she is part of the staff.
I don't know. I guess...I just wanted to be nice.
or... jared is awesome. wow. well at least there are al ot
of good looking guys. now I am not so hot . yea
that sucks. f n zone diet. I would like to fuckin
tell my mom ...I told her. to shut up!
this feels terrible to be hurting physically and cant do anything ..I hated my self. and some still of me do.
and I got all angry overexercising. and now I am hurting
and I cant get back in to shape as much as I want and need too.
Then. everytime I mention how I want to get back to 170lbs.
people say oh you look good! you don't need to lose weight.
I got man boobs! it is gross. I don't like man boobs. I hate
fat. when I see a guy with a great ass. what are his thoughts
on my body. and my dick is small. this sucks. the...
there are so many hot gay guys in wpg. I have no chance with
this.
I don't feel any better.
how is xmas mel?
so w everyone cares I that I am gay.
I hate the word. I cant stand it.
I just binged on choc. chip cookies.
I hate her. why do I hate her?
I never had anyone , got get over her.
you don't need them.
I wish I had someone e when then. s omeone.
I am not even checking out these posts.
feel shitty. I don't have much time.
I don't want food. but it is the like them I dn don't
make sense bc I a whaekd a waked .all the time
sex food sex s ffood. I was trying to be in the feeling
after I bought this unhealthy stuff waiting for a bus.
and it ...I was rageing. I have a lot of rage.
I don't have any self-esteem. I seen Jared while he was
changing. he is hot. and he is hung
and I don't have a chance. he might just be a nice guy too.
I don't want to seduce a guy or attempt with one who is STRAIGHT!
...anyway, I have a lot of issues. I have schizo. I talk
alone. I have no one with me. it ...is a tool I guess.
sugar is a way to numb. but it doesn't work esp.
when I cant compete with these guys and if I want to date a guy who is athletic. good luck!!
...this is guy is h is ma amazing. lucky to look.
I don't check out guys in the shower either.
I don't do ...that I...now I would like to see bilie in the
Octagan. zoran too. all of em.!
my that bitch saw my mom and I cant see her. she loves them
anyway. I hate it when I just want to give in. or
something. this sucks. I have no self esteem bc I he
hates e me. they all do. and they got a way with it.
I want to call them and ...sy a sy
what wouy to you do this. ? why would you make shit yp up?
why? why do this t stuff? do t you now how ti f feels
to hate. I hate hating. I hate it! I have no home
and no one to talk to. I have these internet lines
and thea a that ...I have a crisis line I hate I when they
ask what brought on these feelings?
James do you have any thoughts of suicide? fuck.
two questions I hate being asked. ....listen.
I just want to someone to listen. to care.
vote for me to get my shit out. not these textbook
stuff...I am op pissed off. that is not my father.
I ...get knew I.d. in a couple weeks.
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at least one guy likes me. but thing Is I am afraid of
falling in love I with me. wtf.
I know. I need help. and today I think I flirted with a girl
where I volunteer...but she is part of the staff.
I don't know. I guess...I just wanted to be nice.
or... jared is awesome. wow. well at least there are al ot
of good looking guys. now I am not so hot . yea
that sucks. f n zone diet. I would like to fuckin
tell my mom ...I told her. to shut up!
this feels terrible to be hurting physically and cant do anything ..I hated my self. and some still of me do.
and I got all angry overexercising. and now I am hurting
and I cant get back in to shape as much as I want and need too.
Then. everytime I mention how I want to get back to 170lbs.
people say oh you look good! you don't need to lose weight.
I got man boobs! it is gross. I don't like man boobs. I hate
fat. when I see a guy with a great ass. what are his thoughts
on my body. and my dick is small. this sucks. the...
there are so many hot gay guys in wpg. I have no chance with
this.
I don't feel any better.
need to. lopl. this. I don't want to hurt him.
I don't want to die. I don't want to remmb them.
buti her face is cs scary.
I remember a guy followed me to their apt.
I didn't like this thought. I didlnt like them.
I wondered why would my dad do this to me.
why would I have to not. feel anything for her.
why do I have to see. hate see them having sex.
my dad and her,. they threatened me.
they would hit me . and then
he wxent . in and then he hit me a lot.
cum in me . cum in every hole. cum in me.
cum. this is duisgusting meri. says.
noobyd will believ you said meri.
nobody cared. I some times
I don't want .......................this.
I dotn want sex. I don't want to look at m en.
. but I know I have no choice. I had to se desire my
dad. I was taught to have love him to make love to him
and then to hate me. and then mom hit me bkaz
I would hit her. I would
hie hit my mother . autn
shows me how to hit her.
where the heck was God?
heavy?
then why is there suicide in me
I don't want them. go to I bilies
all my mom said go there.
I don't use punctuations bekaz at didn't frint keys
bkaz French computers.
sorry. so I a have to press other keys to get other
symbols. I hate dick
but. I just saw a guy open my mouth
and put his huge dick in me.
I know I need dad. dad dad dad
but . I need to cry
so I hope guys to flirt .
no one here is flirting.
may be I want some thing from my dad and am acting out.
check.
okay so . wheat I hate this. no more
goran. now more dick.
I ahte hate. you you you hate you.
no more. face book
no moer. family. how do I get tio to
my self. how do I get home
when I all I hve had or whas. o I don't want to hear
them breathing heavy I don't want to remember him.
I . stomjpson. thomposn trapers.
I remember he worde worked at trappers tavern.
and I erase my memory. I erase my memory
so billie and meri to don't have to think of this.
I remember food. the way to starve
their suffering is my b binge eating.
I have to eat. I ahte hate this.
when will I get this. when will I get this.
so how d can I have noe ever never have friends
never allowed anything and he gives biillle all.
he gives her everyintng. I want to do
shit. I want to end. this. by so showing everyon on
facebood what biille family did to me
why would I do this?
revenge.
I don't want to die. I don't want to remmb them.
buti her face is cs scary.
I remember a guy followed me to their apt.
I didn't like this thought. I didlnt like them.
I wondered why would my dad do this to me.
why would I have to not. feel anything for her.
why do I have to see. hate see them having sex.
my dad and her,. they threatened me.
they would hit me . and then
he wxent . in and then he hit me a lot.
cum in me . cum in every hole. cum in me.
cum. this is duisgusting meri. says.
noobyd will believ you said meri.
nobody cared. I some times
I don't want .......................this.
I dotn want sex. I don't want to look at m en.
. but I know I have no choice. I had to se desire my
dad. I was taught to have love him to make love to him
and then to hate me. and then mom hit me bkaz
I would hit her. I would
hie hit my mother . autn
shows me how to hit her.
where the heck was God?
heavy?
then why is there suicide in me
I don't want them. go to I bilies
all my mom said go there.
I don't use punctuations bekaz at didn't frint keys
bkaz French computers.
sorry. so I a have to press other keys to get other
symbols. I hate dick
but. I just saw a guy open my mouth
and put his huge dick in me.
I know I need dad. dad dad dad
but . I need to cry
so I hope guys to flirt .
no one here is flirting.
may be I want some thing from my dad and am acting out.
check.
okay so . wheat I hate this. no more
goran. now more dick.
I ahte hate. you you you hate you.
no more. face book
no moer. family. how do I get tio to
my self. how do I get home
when I all I hve had or whas. o I don't want to hear
them breathing heavy I don't want to remember him.
I . stomjpson. thomposn trapers.
I remember he worde worked at trappers tavern.
and I erase my memory. I erase my memory
so billie and meri to don't have to think of this.
I remember food. the way to starve
their suffering is my b binge eating.
I have to eat. I ahte hate this.
when will I get this. when will I get this.
so how d can I have noe ever never have friends
never allowed anything and he gives biillle all.
he gives her everyintng. I want to do
shit. I want to end. this. by so showing everyon on
facebood what biille family did to me
why would I do this?
revenge.
don't talk to me.
don't talk to me.
don't talk to me
don't talk to me.
do to thoa you wnta to touch me
c.a. nesbitt arena.
please why do I have to see him.
why do I have to be femaile.
why do I ah have to go . there.
why do ihave to be a horror movie
why do I have to be here
why do I have to have
hy do I hcn t, no think.
thi. I don't wnt grandperstn
I don't want good.
food. got dit the me be let me think
I don't want to remm that ti.v.
I don't want to see billie tits.
or meris I don't want ou want s bille
never tell me I am bilie never tell me I am girl.
en enver at take me down. nm
never take me down
never take me done. dnot touch me
never I am not secare of tyour thoughts
you are not here. and you are not in me
and you cant do this to me nimore.
this my thos I why I cr I lok at men then
I turn . let him upt hi s tounge our to
mens sufff let him tlak to jared and tell him
he has a nice dick and nice body
let him go to Halloween on neryears and tell everyon
he is gay. or that he needs to keep me shit
let him talk to bilie . and slap bozna.
let him nk know what kind of devil he ihas in him.
and then god tel ie this this. this.
if there is god then give me no one. nothgn
but hvei me thet fact thougth to be able to learn
I need to learn more engolish fowrd,
I need to mve omvoe on. I need to mve them go
fioget Thompson for get loiions blub.
legftthem I need to learn
forget the name gorna
forget them I don't have to be. anyone
th I don't meri si michell pfeffer. she can hug reober t rd o
let her move to los angel
that is where they are l.a.
I don't want mweri ever.
don't need them
how willi move on
how wili I care about me
who you wnt you them bilei me to .
them. I am scaref of them
I amscared I don't awnt to to. to
t I don't want billie can be on her back and fuck her
uncle. he wants to have sex with goran.
and then I ersed my thougts. I r erased eveyron
I am gay. but I a I am gay fine. tnot
proble I awill feigu this out
vgiu dhitn I am gay bkaz uncle aunt
force me to be a girl. and I don't want to be a girl
and bilie slaos me eight now bkaz I cant think.
why cant goran talk on face book. he has
no where to t go.
she catn see me. nobody can
she gets to have everyion .
why catn I have me. why cant I have
me why catn I have me.
I hate the words needless ow worry.
hated smila
I
that wsa boznas feelings
boznaas hates smial.
I never want to be you. or them
but you stolk me and took and took me
until I hsd cunm in me sleeping
you din this when I was lsepoig a lll the time
smila will never know
wo I dot you bielvd me
how di my psyche talk
I don't awnt to talk to you.
need to cry.
need to feel nee dto tnot stare at anyone
ever. never se them
what I wouild do to se bob.
my therapsi. pricelss to save a person.
take care fuck youi.
yodtn talk to me ever gain
e don't want this di d otn w
th kdi dgreo up.
wnj sten atr I I dotn an tiv. sow.s
noe re. dkjl;
don't talk to me.
don't talk to me
don't talk to me.
do to thoa you wnta to touch me
c.a. nesbitt arena.
please why do I have to see him.
why do I have to be femaile.
why do I ah have to go . there.
why do ihave to be a horror movie
why do I have to be here
why do I have to have
hy do I hcn t, no think.
thi. I don't wnt grandperstn
I don't want good.
food. got dit the me be let me think
I don't want to remm that ti.v.
I don't want to see billie tits.
or meris I don't want ou want s bille
never tell me I am bilie never tell me I am girl.
en enver at take me down. nm
never take me down
never take me done. dnot touch me
never I am not secare of tyour thoughts
you are not here. and you are not in me
and you cant do this to me nimore.
this my thos I why I cr I lok at men then
I turn . let him upt hi s tounge our to
mens sufff let him tlak to jared and tell him
he has a nice dick and nice body
let him go to Halloween on neryears and tell everyon
he is gay. or that he needs to keep me shit
let him talk to bilie . and slap bozna.
let him nk know what kind of devil he ihas in him.
and then god tel ie this this. this.
if there is god then give me no one. nothgn
but hvei me thet fact thougth to be able to learn
I need to learn more engolish fowrd,
I need to mve omvoe on. I need to mve them go
fioget Thompson for get loiions blub.
legftthem I need to learn
forget the name gorna
forget them I don't have to be. anyone
th I don't meri si michell pfeffer. she can hug reober t rd o
let her move to los angel
that is where they are l.a.
I don't want mweri ever.
don't need them
how willi move on
how wili I care about me
who you wnt you them bilei me to .
them. I am scaref of them
I amscared I don't awnt to to. to
t I don't want billie can be on her back and fuck her
uncle. he wants to have sex with goran.
and then I ersed my thougts. I r erased eveyron
I am gay. but I a I am gay fine. tnot
proble I awill feigu this out
vgiu dhitn I am gay bkaz uncle aunt
force me to be a girl. and I don't want to be a girl
and bilie slaos me eight now bkaz I cant think.
why cant goran talk on face book. he has
no where to t go.
she catn see me. nobody can
she gets to have everyion .
why catn I have me. why cant I have
me why catn I have me.
I hate the words needless ow worry.
hated smila
I
that wsa boznas feelings
boznaas hates smial.
I never want to be you. or them
but you stolk me and took and took me
until I hsd cunm in me sleeping
you din this when I was lsepoig a lll the time
smila will never know
wo I dot you bielvd me
how di my psyche talk
I don't awnt to talk to you.
need to cry.
need to feel nee dto tnot stare at anyone
ever. never se them
what I wouild do to se bob.
my therapsi. pricelss to save a person.
take care fuck youi.
yodtn talk to me ever gain
e don't want this di d otn w
th kdi dgreo up.
wnj sten atr I I dotn an tiv. sow.s
noe re. dkjl;
when I think of men. if I see a guy want to get drunk
I hate to vie me. start at . why cant I lio
me. school
thanks Charles . I love you. you helped me I needed
you. I o would ol love to take a triop to ssee you.
dn noooo id otn want to seuck him off.
forvet I g I just nwat someone to talk to.
I just need a friend.
thatnks and love everyone. now I know nobody had has nothing
to do with my thoughts. nobody will harm me ever
again. I don't nwa to want you se. sex tih you
I cant laea leave froyou forver.
I wishi can smile for all. I just never want to have
sex. not yet. thank God.
love you all.
I hate to vie me. start at . why cant I lio
me. school
thanks Charles . I love you. you helped me I needed
you. I o would ol love to take a triop to ssee you.
dn noooo id otn want to seuck him off.
forvet I g I just nwat someone to talk to.
I just need a friend.
thatnks and love everyone. now I know nobody had has nothing
to do with my thoughts. nobody will harm me ever
again. I don't nwa to want you se. sex tih you
I cant laea leave froyou forver.
I wishi can smile for all. I just never want to have
sex. not yet. thank God.
love you all.
victor-victim
Registrant
Go, Sterling, Go!
don't know you. how can I help you?
trust I.
I mi don't know . , my t dad
brain. in my brain.
I ndeed to get it out.
primal rage.
I need the rage out.
but when I think of rage . I lose
I eat. I have to eat. .. what
jared I s nie gut I need a dad.
I am scared to at talk.
what do I do. what if I seduce someon
I don't want to seduce or be seduced
I am scared what do o I do.
fuck.IM SCAred of talking.
im scared
not that I don't want to.
I just feel low self esteem.
I wihsh I never got over weight.
I hate them.
h8t edfdfafsd
don't want to be hund gry
please le t me boy.
let me bay
jared I need help
I need love and I don't know if I want sex.
I dotn know if I will see you again.
I enedded to be loved.
but ia afarad of dick.
I don't know who
IM SCAred of talking.
im scared
not that I don't want to.
I just feel low self esteem.
I wihsh I never got over weight.
I hate them.
h8t edfdfafsd
trust I.
I mi don't know . , my t dad
brain. in my brain.
I ndeed to get it out.
primal rage.
I need the rage out.
but when I think of rage . I lose
I eat. I have to eat. .. what
jared I s nie gut I need a dad.
I am scared to at talk.
what do I do. what if I seduce someon
I don't want to seduce or be seduced
I am scared what do o I do.
fuck.IM SCAred of talking.
im scared
not that I don't want to.
I just feel low self esteem.
I wihsh I never got over weight.
I hate them.
h8t edfdfafsd
don't want to be hund gry
please le t me boy.
let me bay
jared I need help
I need love and I don't know if I want sex.
I dotn know if I will see you again.
I enedded to be loved.
but ia afarad of dick.
I don't know who
IM SCAred of talking.
im scared
not that I don't want to.
I just feel low self esteem.
I wihsh I never got over weight.
I hate them.
h8t edfdfafsd
trust doesn't suck. I just dfsdfsdffont
like this. can I see you.
can you be my daddy.
can you be my dad
please be my dad.
please to. to. tolak. don't talk.
says bilie. just let it.
why shouldn't I get on facebood and let it go.
why should they d get it.
why . you wont believe you.
you wont believe you you wont beleive
noobey will belive . you . bnody
why should I go there?
why should I go on facebook.
don't!
you . don't . why do you love him?
why. if look at a guy I want to eat.
that is the automatic response.
I hate eatingggggggggggggggggggggg.
I don't want to be an sssoled. I need help.
scared. y?
kaz I don't know if I want sex.
I am . nooby ic is sking sking. baseball y gymnastics.
NO! you cant play sports. you have to be a good boy and go to billie.s
why ddsfasfjkl;adfjkadl;fjka;dfa
fasdkl;fajdf;lasdjfadjfkasdf
asdfadfkl;jasd;fljk im glas d you worth it.
why do I play with you?
kriril donslit like youi smila. I hs likes his bilie picofshit.
oi hdfl;asjkdfl;fir I deen orjn then I sot todfdsfl;sdkafjsl;fkjf;jfdfklds;fsdfjsdf
dsfsdfsdfsdk;lfsdjalf;sdjfkl;sadjf;sadfjsdf;sdfjasd;fjsdf
why do I have to be at bilies. you are a bitch
bilie. I wish I couls ruin your brain.
wish icould ruin all your brains.
I have to play with bilie fuck u.
life sucks. well not. ya. but I want to vlie
this dsu you rcik rfof rocdasldk;jfadl;fjkfasd
fasdfaf;lk
like this. can I see you.
can you be my daddy.
can you be my dad
please be my dad.
please to. to. tolak. don't talk.
says bilie. just let it.
why shouldn't I get on facebood and let it go.
why should they d get it.
why . you wont believe you.
you wont believe you you wont beleive
noobey will belive . you . bnody
why should I go there?
why should I go on facebook.
don't!
you . don't . why do you love him?
why. if look at a guy I want to eat.
that is the automatic response.
I hate eatingggggggggggggggggggggg.
I don't want to be an sssoled. I need help.
scared. y?
kaz I don't know if I want sex.
I am . nooby ic is sking sking. baseball y gymnastics.
NO! you cant play sports. you have to be a good boy and go to billie.s
why ddsfasfjkl;adfjkadl;fjka;dfa
fasdkl;fajdf;lasdjfadjfkasdf
asdfadfkl;jasd;fljk im glas d you worth it.
why do I play with you?
kriril donslit like youi smila. I hs likes his bilie picofshit.
oi hdfl;asjkdfl;fir I deen orjn then I sot todfdsfl;sdkafjsl;fkjf;jfdfklds;fsdfjsdf
dsfsdfsdfsdk;lfsdjalf;sdjfkl;sadjf;sadfjsdf;sdfjasd;fjsdf
why do I have to be at bilies. you are a bitch
bilie. I wish I couls ruin your brain.
wish icould ruin all your brains.
I have to play with bilie fuck u.
life sucks. well not. ya. but I want to vlie
this dsu you rcik rfof rocdasldk;jfadl;fjkfasd
fasdfaf;lk
can I see you.
can you be my daddy.
can you be my dad
please be my dad.
please to. to. tolak. don't talk.
says bilie. just let it.
why shouldn't I get on facebood and let it go.
why should they d get it.
why . you wont believe you.
you wont believe you you wont beleive
noobey will belive . you . bnody
don't know what to do. I don't want to get undressed.
I don't want to look at it.
I am scared. I don't want to get anbry at jared bkaz he is nice looking
I don't know if I want sex or love . I don't know and I don't want
anyone to do this for me. this really isn't fun. I hate him.
father? not mine! go blow your self.
too small , huh? ! fag. I will be honoured. kay that
is wrong to say that word. why did I have to have th is.
go fuck yourself. you c hate your self.
billies mym shit. she wants to take over and be mmomy
and her queer don't tell anyone I am gay husbandi s
loser. I don't. how willyou hit me kiril.
dflasjkdfl;djfdf;jas;dfjsd;fj
is a . hated me. ir is to blame .
and everyone ast makes sore. dn nied to laek
I needt o read. I haet my family..........
hate work. hate this hate that. hate htae hta
hate hate work I wk
loneliness sucks. sdfkjdf;fjk fsjkadf;lfjso bored.
I no I need friend. I am scared of sex. don't want it.
not all true. I have no home
can you be my daddy.
can you be my dad
please be my dad.
please to. to. tolak. don't talk.
says bilie. just let it.
why shouldn't I get on facebood and let it go.
why should they d get it.
why . you wont believe you.
you wont believe you you wont beleive
noobey will belive . you . bnody
don't know what to do. I don't want to get undressed.
I don't want to look at it.
I am scared. I don't want to get anbry at jared bkaz he is nice looking
I don't know if I want sex or love . I don't know and I don't want
anyone to do this for me. this really isn't fun. I hate him.
father? not mine! go blow your self.
too small , huh? ! fag. I will be honoured. kay that
is wrong to say that word. why did I have to have th is.
go fuck yourself. you c hate your self.
billies mym shit. she wants to take over and be mmomy
and her queer don't tell anyone I am gay husbandi s
loser. I don't. how willyou hit me kiril.
dflasjkdfl;djfdf;jas;dfjsd;fj
is a . hated me. ir is to blame .
and everyone ast makes sore. dn nied to laek
I needt o read. I haet my family..........
hate work. hate this hate that. hate htae hta
hate hate work I wk
loneliness sucks. sdfkjdf;fjk fsjkadf;lfjso bored.
I no I need friend. I am scared of sex. don't want it.
not all true. I have no home
hate you. dhtan ite. wait that you want you want
want you want this iwa want you the tehm them stay
away I am still 5 years old. or 4 I don't know my name.
it isn't koz. ________ . I od know what. want you want I dont
awnt want you. your dad needs you goran. your n dad needs
you. I don't want thim. him. don't want my of them. dont
want them. please go awy food. I don't want thsm. I don't want
to sce e erew this up for anyone I just want to move.
how do I move. how do I get a la plan. how do I . should heal mbody
I don't want to touch billiie ever. I dotn want . care nobody is talking to
yourifght right now g. ywa. I ku sex. with you. no with m thm em
no . I am so fiking r tired . I hate fear. I ahaet ei vbein g alone.
or I wish I could see me . ego. I want to dance fn injureis.
I would like to see you have this. give billie money asshole.
give her the house. I need da.d n eed dad. I need dad. dad.
need dad. slegh. snow. age 3 .. I hated my mom . didn't like her for billie
I wish I could change . I don't know my gender. I wish I coujld spell my
dnem. I don't know mthm I don't want to. I get these idesa wish I cojld make
some money what do you want to. live live live live ...............
what the heck. do I wan tto yo trust me do you trust me
do you trust me. you told me to get a life. sorry but I have hard times
and now I need money I gave t you 10 grand. I need help god please
let me find ways to get deep tissue theapy I am begging you I deseve getter.
I deserve healing. I am working ahrd. please god. help me.
please I need exercise so bad. pelease. I need to let them out of me
hw why owul would I awa want this.
you need bilie fuck u bozna stay out of here I don't want t you hare
god can help you. stay wawy from me
want you want this iwa want you the tehm them stay
away I am still 5 years old. or 4 I don't know my name.
it isn't koz. ________ . I od know what. want you want I dont
awnt want you. your dad needs you goran. your n dad needs
you. I don't want thim. him. don't want my of them. dont
want them. please go awy food. I don't want thsm. I don't want
to sce e erew this up for anyone I just want to move.
how do I move. how do I get a la plan. how do I . should heal mbody
I don't want to touch billiie ever. I dotn want . care nobody is talking to
yourifght right now g. ywa. I ku sex. with you. no with m thm em
no . I am so fiking r tired . I hate fear. I ahaet ei vbein g alone.
or I wish I could see me . ego. I want to dance fn injureis.
I would like to see you have this. give billie money asshole.
give her the house. I need da.d n eed dad. I need dad. dad.
need dad. slegh. snow. age 3 .. I hated my mom . didn't like her for billie
I wish I could change . I don't know my gender. I wish I coujld spell my
dnem. I don't know mthm I don't want to. I get these idesa wish I cojld make
some money what do you want to. live live live live ...............
what the heck. do I wan tto yo trust me do you trust me
do you trust me. you told me to get a life. sorry but I have hard times
and now I need money I gave t you 10 grand. I need help god please
let me find ways to get deep tissue theapy I am begging you I deseve getter.
I deserve healing. I am working ahrd. please god. help me.
please I need exercise so bad. pelease. I need to let them out of me
hw why owul would I awa want this.
you need bilie fuck u bozna stay out of here I don't want t you hare
god can help you. stay wawy from me
i dont know how i am goijng to do this.
i dont want to seduce men. i am scared of men.
and i flirt at times and then later i hate my self and
get angry with my self. i never was allowed, anything!
i am getting memories of my dad smothering me to keep me
quiet!
My dad. i wish i could call him ugly. Him and his wife.
I hope they all suffer. I still do this. Still letting me
to him. "come to me goran , come to me".
and my thought is of baking cookies in a few hours.
Loneliness can be so tunnel like. I want to watch some cartoon right now. I wish biille can find friends. I wish
to beat her and her family as well. I feel i sacrificed my brother. I do love the guy and i just want to see him so bad.
I love people. I was watching the Vikings/ Giants game at a bar last night. I am jealous of the U.S. they have so much.
But i dont like to feel inferior ...that is what my aunt did.
She wanted me to envy billie. And this ...was toxic in me.
I could never focus m y thinking is always to make billie
comfortable. I remember i would be in their home her back
faced me and she would say " just dont talk , just let him
do it". This is my family?
I have huge issues with my small dick. I didn't.
(i am around women at a gov't office, my mind is having
some times). ( I also have issues with being bossy?
no. not that. lonley? YIP! i have a hard time with girls.
women. i want to date but i am scared of women laughing
at me). i want to love my mom but she has a hard time
i think she wants to make her husband feel like THE MAN.
KIRIL has to be the one!! Have it all!
fill me with your liquids followed by sugar.
....i am sorry a lot. my dad , his homosexual brother.
SHUT UP! nobody ..." bilie says.
(crystal a woman at FACES , just gave me a ticket to
la Symphony and to a play...yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.)
(mi happi!)
back to business. i feel rage , but i am getting better.
This is good. i love people. and me going...i dont
want to buy that crap! i hate it. see goran
you need billie. billie needs you. SLAP! billie doesn't
you need everyone. why cant you shut up?
these voices are really hard . i dont want to swear anymore.
i wish everyone a happy new year.
what am i going to do this new year. i dont want
to be in a bar.
you can touch bilie there. k i dont want
her face. how do i kill her face. my lord.
dirty dancing. i dont want to know that movie.
i dont want to.
stage theatre. i can never go back. i wish i couldj go on facebook.
dont do that. i have to just sdjas;fja;djfaf
asdfadfkl;ja;fajfajfasdfjadfa
dfdflask;fja;fja;fjd
i am a brave guy. what if a woman laughs at me.
i dont know if i could take it.
what if i go nuts.
sugar. when things like this happen i go nuts
and eat or binge eat. i am trying to be e with the
feeliniigs.
dad alright.! fuckin jerk. idiot! . you have no home
at least you try to paint this image of your country.
okay i get it us. is best we all know that. you have ti
to have it. i get i pizza i get to eat.
fk. shit. blagoj is shit. ie everyone i n thompson
should know he is gay. 'GORAN DONT YOU DARE DO THAT!
this is your problem. you are gay.!!
wow. i could get physical with a girl.
that is b/c blagoj hates women. they must of teased him
in his little crap village. he has no self-esteem so
he has to bring me into to this. shit.
i like languages. i should just learn french fuck it!
i always wanted to. i love languages. i would love to
travel .
im sorry Ivan. i should have never touched your back.
(lol).
yea. crystal you want to go for coffee?
do you want to go for coffee with her? not really!
my brain is fuckin. crazy.
i like. everytime i want to look at women .
i am fro droppiing this.
but Ivan i am so sorry! what about this .
i needed a dad, friend.
"That isnt my problem , you gay guy".
may be i just NEEDED SOMEONE. TO TALK TO.
WHY AM I DOING THIS TO EVERYONEEEEEE?
FUCK!.
jealous. you are g jealous. why am i jealous.
why couldnt my grandparents die. die before 1974.
that ...i am cant wish for things that can't happen.
i need to slow more down. i like when i can focus on
the moment and know that these voices are only in MY HEAD
and not happening when i am talking to someone.
This schizo can be frightening.
So now what? i want to watch peanuts.
great i just a got a visual of touching my self.
slow down. i need a dad. i visualize my self
cuddling with crystal. i am scared oe . guys.
i dont want this. but i do.
make up my mind. i want to move.
not yet!
love you goran. love you . i didn't want them
to talk to me. i dont want to hurt people.
esp. children.
i am tired i need to go.
wh is ... main street , bus.... superstore. LONELY
ANGER. DONT GO IN. TON TOC CMOE TO BILLIES
DONT GO THERE. DONT GO TO. (sorry zoran id idnt want
to hurt you. - you suck kiril you are a pussy.
i hate you. sugar sucks!)
dont go. I DONT NEED them. i have to buy organic bananas
for candassy. but i dont need to buy other
shit. i am so scard to thou what if i dont eat .or
dont buy. YUOU WILL DIE. YOU NEED GORAN GORNA NEEDS
TO DIE. BUTY UTHYEM THA t is wehn my biran brain
starts working g differently.
so if even a person says shit about something else
doesn't mean they hate that person it may just be
feelings of fear coming from old pain.
lonelinees sucks. i said that!
fkn. coward, you cant handle your shit.
THAT IS pretty much the SLAP!
i cant left. bozna is there. step father. is there
he gets to come donw. he gets to do thisngs to me.
i get to be a ;pig. they get to feel accepted a dn
loved. i get shit. i hate . them. why cant i sew them.
is that how you spell it i am not googling this.
why cant i get my mom? your mom? your mom is gay.
y'know if anyone wants to give therapy to them selves
or be a good listener. Allow to believe anyone. if
they have been hurt. b/c/ the abuse or pain continues
when a person, kid has no wher to go. we need love!
humans need love. SMACK! bozna can smack billie.
talk talk talk. talk talk talk. c ant smack bm me
where will you go kiril. i dont care. i want to get
into boxing. and box them. out. sugar free.
i know w sugar is never frree keeps me houst. hour.
i hate them. time is up! that is awful
it hard to focus. i was having a conversation.
i dont hate women. i hate my aunt , cousings. sometimes.
my birth mother. angry. i feel angry as long as i can
feel angry and not let it go to the wrong people.
good boy James. well what esel. iw what do i wpll like
learning disorder. mayb e billie has a learning disorder.
bozna is right next to me and she wants to have bgillie
be smart and me dumb isnt that right dickdad! suptd
i need to get a break i need to hang out with men who
wont touch me? what if i tempt myself to want to touch
a guy ? i hate this. i dont wnat to trigger guys
i hate this. i keep thimking that i know it all.
i dont want to . i dont know it all. losers billie
knows it all. o you are this. and bite my ass.
djubre. i want life. life is life na na na na na!
. once he brought me there.
he holds my hand and then i had a sex change.
i did this to my self they say.
i touched blagojs dick and now i got to touch every guys'
dick!
family? would like to get into martial arts and see
dadddy in the Octagon. NOT HAPPENING.
reality does suck. i am negative i dont want to say suck
so much. i wish you croak dumbass. zoran has a good life
i should speak german to my dad . and then to my mom
can fuck you all! have your shit nation. i am tired of
this. yet i tupe type type type. karpit tunnel syndrom.
i hate hti this. walk walk walk. i dont want to go to
the movies. di dont want to mio move to bilie s o oh i
f i ag get it. i get it. g bi bviel want sto move to
los angeles. yea you do. you know daddy. daddy wants
to be gay a but his wife wants none other than to kill
gorannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
boom shakalaka boom! i hate ermni i hate them.
they cant to have moov. nato natea naide my godmother.
i wanted to much i was a sensitive kid . now a what
i awnt to see my mom. they wouldn't g let me.
i wish i couijld kill this lower. upper manhattan
i need to see stuff this really is not happy. dlfjksdl;
dfasjk;dfjd;fjsd;fjsa;fajfs;adfjasdf
asdflsad;fjkasd;fjasd;fjkasd;fjsdf;jasdkfasd
frape your fmther. you snt kiril wants to buy my love.
WELL trah agen. boy bozna food. bozna needs to shove
dick in her mouth, her zoran they love the fu buffet
of penises. t hey can shove it up theri asss. they
can google all kinds of shit and then they can spill this
to faceboofk for this. i ahve it good. i ahve it have
type correctly! boy you area bad boy bozna. bozna wants
a perfect life! her and her husbadn kiril. yea.
they like to own the world uuuhahahahahahahahha!
James is born child from Jesus Christ ...lallalal
may be i should walk dd;jfsdf;j
i got to go. ia m tired.
james got to go.
pussy pussy pussy. check out pussy.
i dont want to seduce men. i am scared of men.
and i flirt at times and then later i hate my self and
get angry with my self. i never was allowed, anything!
i am getting memories of my dad smothering me to keep me
quiet!
My dad. i wish i could call him ugly. Him and his wife.
I hope they all suffer. I still do this. Still letting me
to him. "come to me goran , come to me".
and my thought is of baking cookies in a few hours.
Loneliness can be so tunnel like. I want to watch some cartoon right now. I wish biille can find friends. I wish
to beat her and her family as well. I feel i sacrificed my brother. I do love the guy and i just want to see him so bad.
I love people. I was watching the Vikings/ Giants game at a bar last night. I am jealous of the U.S. they have so much.
But i dont like to feel inferior ...that is what my aunt did.
She wanted me to envy billie. And this ...was toxic in me.
I could never focus m y thinking is always to make billie
comfortable. I remember i would be in their home her back
faced me and she would say " just dont talk , just let him
do it". This is my family?
I have huge issues with my small dick. I didn't.
(i am around women at a gov't office, my mind is having
some times). ( I also have issues with being bossy?
no. not that. lonley? YIP! i have a hard time with girls.
women. i want to date but i am scared of women laughing
at me). i want to love my mom but she has a hard time
i think she wants to make her husband feel like THE MAN.
KIRIL has to be the one!! Have it all!
fill me with your liquids followed by sugar.
....i am sorry a lot. my dad , his homosexual brother.
SHUT UP! nobody ..." bilie says.
(crystal a woman at FACES , just gave me a ticket to
la Symphony and to a play...yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.)
(mi happi!)
back to business. i feel rage , but i am getting better.
This is good. i love people. and me going...i dont
want to buy that crap! i hate it. see goran
you need billie. billie needs you. SLAP! billie doesn't
you need everyone. why cant you shut up?
these voices are really hard . i dont want to swear anymore.
i wish everyone a happy new year.
what am i going to do this new year. i dont want
to be in a bar.
you can touch bilie there. k i dont want
her face. how do i kill her face. my lord.
dirty dancing. i dont want to know that movie.
i dont want to.
stage theatre. i can never go back. i wish i couldj go on facebook.
dont do that. i have to just sdjas;fja;djfaf
asdfadfkl;ja;fajfajfasdfjadfa
dfdflask;fja;fja;fjd
i am a brave guy. what if a woman laughs at me.
i dont know if i could take it.
what if i go nuts.
sugar. when things like this happen i go nuts
and eat or binge eat. i am trying to be e with the
feeliniigs.
dad alright.! fuckin jerk. idiot! . you have no home
at least you try to paint this image of your country.
okay i get it us. is best we all know that. you have ti
to have it. i get i pizza i get to eat.
fk. shit. blagoj is shit. ie everyone i n thompson
should know he is gay. 'GORAN DONT YOU DARE DO THAT!
this is your problem. you are gay.!!
wow. i could get physical with a girl.
that is b/c blagoj hates women. they must of teased him
in his little crap village. he has no self-esteem so
he has to bring me into to this. shit.
i like languages. i should just learn french fuck it!
i always wanted to. i love languages. i would love to
travel .
im sorry Ivan. i should have never touched your back.
(lol).
yea. crystal you want to go for coffee?
do you want to go for coffee with her? not really!
my brain is fuckin. crazy.
i like. everytime i want to look at women .
i am fro droppiing this.
but Ivan i am so sorry! what about this .
i needed a dad, friend.
"That isnt my problem , you gay guy".
may be i just NEEDED SOMEONE. TO TALK TO.
WHY AM I DOING THIS TO EVERYONEEEEEE?
FUCK!.
jealous. you are g jealous. why am i jealous.
why couldnt my grandparents die. die before 1974.
that ...i am cant wish for things that can't happen.
i need to slow more down. i like when i can focus on
the moment and know that these voices are only in MY HEAD
and not happening when i am talking to someone.
This schizo can be frightening.
So now what? i want to watch peanuts.
great i just a got a visual of touching my self.
slow down. i need a dad. i visualize my self
cuddling with crystal. i am scared oe . guys.
i dont want this. but i do.
make up my mind. i want to move.
not yet!
love you goran. love you . i didn't want them
to talk to me. i dont want to hurt people.
esp. children.
i am tired i need to go.
wh is ... main street , bus.... superstore. LONELY
ANGER. DONT GO IN. TON TOC CMOE TO BILLIES
DONT GO THERE. DONT GO TO. (sorry zoran id idnt want
to hurt you. - you suck kiril you are a pussy.
i hate you. sugar sucks!)
dont go. I DONT NEED them. i have to buy organic bananas
for candassy. but i dont need to buy other
shit. i am so scard to thou what if i dont eat .or
dont buy. YUOU WILL DIE. YOU NEED GORAN GORNA NEEDS
TO DIE. BUTY UTHYEM THA t is wehn my biran brain
starts working g differently.
so if even a person says shit about something else
doesn't mean they hate that person it may just be
feelings of fear coming from old pain.
lonelinees sucks. i said that!
fkn. coward, you cant handle your shit.
THAT IS pretty much the SLAP!
i cant left. bozna is there. step father. is there
he gets to come donw. he gets to do thisngs to me.
i get to be a ;pig. they get to feel accepted a dn
loved. i get shit. i hate . them. why cant i sew them.
is that how you spell it i am not googling this.
why cant i get my mom? your mom? your mom is gay.
y'know if anyone wants to give therapy to them selves
or be a good listener. Allow to believe anyone. if
they have been hurt. b/c/ the abuse or pain continues
when a person, kid has no wher to go. we need love!
humans need love. SMACK! bozna can smack billie.
talk talk talk. talk talk talk. c ant smack bm me
where will you go kiril. i dont care. i want to get
into boxing. and box them. out. sugar free.
i know w sugar is never frree keeps me houst. hour.
i hate them. time is up! that is awful
it hard to focus. i was having a conversation.
i dont hate women. i hate my aunt , cousings. sometimes.
my birth mother. angry. i feel angry as long as i can
feel angry and not let it go to the wrong people.
good boy James. well what esel. iw what do i wpll like
learning disorder. mayb e billie has a learning disorder.
bozna is right next to me and she wants to have bgillie
be smart and me dumb isnt that right dickdad! suptd
i need to get a break i need to hang out with men who
wont touch me? what if i tempt myself to want to touch
a guy ? i hate this. i dont wnat to trigger guys
i hate this. i keep thimking that i know it all.
i dont want to . i dont know it all. losers billie
knows it all. o you are this. and bite my ass.
djubre. i want life. life is life na na na na na!
. once he brought me there.
he holds my hand and then i had a sex change.
i did this to my self they say.
i touched blagojs dick and now i got to touch every guys'
dick!
family? would like to get into martial arts and see
dadddy in the Octagon. NOT HAPPENING.
reality does suck. i am negative i dont want to say suck
so much. i wish you croak dumbass. zoran has a good life
i should speak german to my dad . and then to my mom
can fuck you all! have your shit nation. i am tired of
this. yet i tupe type type type. karpit tunnel syndrom.
i hate hti this. walk walk walk. i dont want to go to
the movies. di dont want to mio move to bilie s o oh i
f i ag get it. i get it. g bi bviel want sto move to
los angeles. yea you do. you know daddy. daddy wants
to be gay a but his wife wants none other than to kill
gorannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
boom shakalaka boom! i hate ermni i hate them.
they cant to have moov. nato natea naide my godmother.
i wanted to much i was a sensitive kid . now a what
i awnt to see my mom. they wouldn't g let me.
i wish i couijld kill this lower. upper manhattan
i need to see stuff this really is not happy. dlfjksdl;
dfasjk;dfjd;fjsd;fjsa;fajfs;adfjasdf
asdflsad;fjkasd;fjasd;fjkasd;fjsdf;jasdkfasd
frape your fmther. you snt kiril wants to buy my love.
WELL trah agen. boy bozna food. bozna needs to shove
dick in her mouth, her zoran they love the fu buffet
of penises. t hey can shove it up theri asss. they
can google all kinds of shit and then they can spill this
to faceboofk for this. i ahve it good. i ahve it have
type correctly! boy you area bad boy bozna. bozna wants
a perfect life! her and her husbadn kiril. yea.
they like to own the world uuuhahahahahahahahha!
James is born child from Jesus Christ ...lallalal
may be i should walk dd;jfsdf;j
i got to go. ia m tired.
james got to go.
pussy pussy pussy. check out pussy.
