can u find your thoughts. what you . will do
ehat they say. youi have no hom.
remember.
your sadness if theirs. a nd if they tell you to be them
you be them.
they own you!
support. need more me. me. me my brain. my
brain me . me no t you. you. hate you.
forgivenss is impossible.
I can think aqnd love goran. I have to cry.
I t is so difficult.
this is boring. .
tunr tune I need to try to tell . them to go back
wehere them are they can kill you .
dad. don't like your dad.
don't want him. hope yo kill your sef. bozna
kill them. close to primal.
close to crying.
craving to see men. craving to nk know what guys look like.
need to undress. bablack out. my pants are down
I am nakes. they start laguing. this is the thought.
this. I never can get naked. never. I used to be
som themon . he gave you mput my pnats odone it is so
trauma. too much. I try to be a boy I tried all te the
time every time I was there it was over . I dt you know
w e none. is okay to be agn nry
okay to hate . okay to shoot them its okay just do it.
get angry. I know. but I can t sjut you at
I know tah that. I need to hearl my go body.
neth. I want a room with bottles.
I have toa sk around.
ferar r fear of her. afraid to look at my mom.
2 year old. how do I go back
how do I feel this shit
how I dd o I gf get my therapist and say this is .not
really happening now I my lost my genetalia to ht this
disgusting family.
I don't understand
that is it. no one understands. nobody
gave a shit. porn. is cool.
club 200. I can get al laid I t . may be I love men.
this doesn't care . don't want to . tell anyone what
they say you don't have your own voice
we kill you
now you are us.
no more t.v.
no more I need love. I don't know if I should have sex.
with men. I am scared.
go into the light goran. fix this. show them you know you
more then then they know themselves.
they don't know me and they can never have me.
hmmmm.
don't like me.
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