I just wish I could be me

[reality2k4]

I wish I did not have fear, I should not have fear.
I went on public transport two months ago, but not since.

I hate the city, its like I am festooned with faces that mean nothing to me at all.
Its like they all live in a world that I could
never call my own.

The little boy in me is still crying, and nobody can listen, just like they never did.
He cries inside, not outside, because he does not want anyone to feel sorry for him.

Sometimes I feel so far away from him, and even that I know he is there, he doesnt recognise me,

ste

 

[Brian]

ste,

Stay close to that little boy and protect him. He sounds like he could use a friend right now. You both are in my prayers.

God Bless,

Brian

 

[Bobby]

Ste, I'm so sorry you're feeling so down. They're not listening there, but we're listening here. And even though he doesn't want anyone to feel sorry for him, I'm going to go right ahead and do that. He doesn't have to know. He needs to know that we understand why he's crying and that he can cry as long as he needs to until he gets it all cried out and that no one here will tell him to stop or that he shouldn't be crying. We all know the hurt, and we all know that sometimes all we have left are the tears. Bobby