i just told my mom. she doesn't believe me

[lipsticklullabies]

she asked what was wrong
i didnt want to tell her that i think he gave me herpes
i said nothing
she got in myf ace and was like WHAT IS WRONG
and i was like i dont know
"you dont know?"
"yeah i know but i dont watn to talk about it"
then she got mad athat i was making her flip out and then she YELLED at me for ten iminutes that i was being melowdramtic and a lot of shit an dthat i "invent" things
finally she calmed down and came in the office and i told her i thinkn i have herpes (went through the symptoms id ont care if she dos't think its true im sure i have herpes)
and then she asked how i would have it
so i said
because i think someone did something to me when i was little
it felt good to say it but at the same time it didnt
because basically
she wanted detials and i told her i wasn't ready to tell her details
so we talked abotu it and basically
she flat out said she doesn't think it happened i guess she wont until i give her details.
it makes me feeel horrible that she doesn't believe me
but shes being nice about it
she told me she cant afford counsling but if i want to go to the doctor about the herpes i can but i dont want to.
she says that she would have noitced something if i really was being hurt

i want to ask you guys how i can get her to believe me but then ill probably have to be like, "so and so on ms said"
and if i tell her imt alkin about it on the intenret she'll think that "i found the idea ont he intenret" because apparently thats how i became gay!
ugh

 

[shadowkid]

i would go to the doctor if you have it you have proof right? its hard to imagine how anyone could think you would lie about something so terrible .but it happens all the time ,people tell and are not believed its crazy

 

[reality2k4]

L,

maybe you could find strength to go to a clinic in hospital to be screened.
They wont really ask you much, but if they do, you can say you were hurt as a kid.

Herpes is treatable, and I dont think it does so much to you except it is a pain to have it.

Your mom sounds like she is in shock about hearing what you said.
She does not, or cannot come to terms with it, but how could she?

Find strength to take that first step, and it will be a huge step in your life, ask your mom to go with you, or see your doc, they are trained for ppl to tell them anything,

ste

 

[VN]

It is what I experience it, you can not 'make' anyone believe anything. You have told to her. Perhaps if you do go to doctor and it is seen truth that you have this disease, that is proof of it also. Your mother, perhaps still she will deny it. I do not know, but it seem that it is not such uncommen way that someone react when they hear of this. You do not get herpes from computer, and you do not get gay from computer, or even from abuse, you are born that way. At least, that what I think on it.

Vitaliy

 

[roadrunner]

Josh,

I'm not sure, but from what you say your Mom may jsut be trying to reassure you. As she doesn't know the whole story yet it will be difficult for her to accept. It is, in fact, very hard for a parent to believe his or her son could have been abused without the aprent knowing anything about it. I know it was very hard for my parents; my Dad's first comment was that he loves me and it wasn't my fault, but then he said, "How did he get past me?"

I would try talking to her again. Assure her that you are NOT making this up, but it's very difficult for you to talk about it and you just can't do that yet. Let her know that you need her help and support.

I like Ste's idea of asking her to go with you to the doctor. Can you do that? That doesn't mean she would be standing there when he checks you, of course. The idea would be for her to get used to the idea that her son needs her help.

I hope you don't really think you "became gay" because of the internet Josh. You are gay because that is part of who you are, nothing more, nothing less.

Much love,
Larry