I hate feeling nuts (TRIGGERS!)

I hate feeling nuts (TRIGGERS!)
C

crisispoint

Registrant
For the past couple of days, I've felt like I'm heading for another emotional crash. I suppose this is normal, as I've been dealing with a lot lately, but this is dealing with abuse crap, and I haven't had to cope with anything devastating for a while. I almost fear it with abuse because is brought me so far down when I first started addressing it.

I went to therapy this week, and left feeling worse than when I went in. A rarity. I'm feeling blue and weepy. I want to act out sexually (I desire it really strongly right now, and not in a healthy sexuality way). I just feel.....blah.

The nightmares are coming and going as well.

I hate bitching about it here. It seems all I do is bitch. I frigging hate having to screw on the gameface and go on with my life as if nothing is wrong and I'm frigging okay. Fuck it I'm NOT okay!

*sigh*

:(

Scot
 
welcome back

long time no see! I missed you!
(())

xoxo

M
 
Scot,

Hey man, ya gotta bitch in here! Who else would listen to us?
Lotsa love guy,

Forrest
 
Scot,

When things get bad it's really important to let out how you feel about it. It sounds like bitching, and if there is a lot on your mind or a lot going on, then sure, endless bitching.

But it's in fact an act of courage to expose to others your own feelings of weakness and vulnerability. It's the right decision, and a difficult one to make when you are already under pressure.

You made an useful comment:

I frigging hate having to screw on the gameface and go on with my life as if nothing is wrong and I'm frigging okay. Fuck it I'm NOT okay!
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When you feel like this it's a good thing to say it. We can't hope to make any progress in the future if we won't or can't admit how we feel right now.

Take care,
Larry
 
Hey Scot, did you realize, as I did the other day, that last week was our two year anniversary of joining MS? It was two years ago that I found myself in a severe crisis. Even when we don't mark the calendar with such events our minds have a way of reminding us. I'm pretty sure that has a lot to do with why my week went much like yours. There's always next week, right? Feel better - John
 
sorry if the word I used was upsetting to some

scot and i have known each other for nearly three years now

and as two gay men - a play on the word
that he used 'bitching'
was meant in good humor and not as
an insult -

i love scot - and i wanted to make him laugh about stuff -

i haven't seen him for a while - and so

apologies - he is like a brother -

m
 
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