I fianlly posted again! Yippie!

I fianlly posted again! Yippie!
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willtobecomplete

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Hey guys, hope your great today! I have had writers block for a while now. I am going to start basic. Most of the time I feel like i don't deserve to have feeling or express them. At the same time I feel like I have to be or am perfect and perfect people don't have fears or acknowledge them right? So here is a list of my humanity. List of fears of mine and their antidoetes based in reality, i hope!

Fear that I am defective
Fear of their never being enough finantially to reach my goals
Fear of sabotaging myself through procrastination
etc.
Fear that my roommate is an unstable psyco mind game player that is about to jump down my throat for breaking one of his glasses
Fear of being dominated, in a game, or just any life situation
Fear of not having and being in control

I am not any better or "more perfect" than anyone, and no one is any better than me. We are all human, No one is demanding perfectionism from you exept you, and if they are screw em, so let it go!
I am strong and tallented, god will provide to complete me where I may be lacking. I do things and business with real confidence
The only way to know is to find out, ignoring the signs and the situation is not going to help anything and make your doubts or paranoia go away.
It's just a game! It's not who you are! It doesn't matter! The point is to have fun. If someone is going to reject you as a freind over your preformance in a game then they are really not a freind at all and it's better to find out now.
I am always in control of myself and no one else. I am not always in control of what happens but I am always in control of how i respond to what happens.

Anyway, thanks for reading, if anyone wnats to add anything, respond as you wish.
 
Good to hear such a strong post. You've helped improve my day already. Thank you and keep it up!!!
Peace - John
 
Hey, Will, I relate to your fears. In fact, I was thinking about some of these this weekend. The "never good enough" syndrom. I wish I could beat that, too. It's like I apply the perfectionistic thinking to everything, and basically it turns into self-criticism on everything. My grass is turning brown, so I must not water it enough. After a while I just shut down, because I can't possibly do everything that is expected of me. I haven't cleaned my aquarium in months, because I can't keep it clean enough. It's like a self-fulfilling thing so I just give up. Let the stupid grass die, see if I care--that sort of thing. Meanwhile, nobody else cares about the things I'm getting so worked up over!

And you know I have the fears of being dominated and controlled. I think everybody here does.

I'd say, don't be so hard on yourself, but I can't seem to do that, so how can I be the expert? (Same as the grass, huh?) But I'll say it anyway. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You're a good guy, even if you did break a glass.
 
Will,

welcome back. It is good to read something positive here. I think all of us can relate to most of the fears you mentioned. But we do, somehow, work through them. You are a strong man, and a good man, and it is good to see you back here posting again.

Leosha
 
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