CT, I read what you wrote. And it touched me - as your words often do.
And I have to reply. But others have already said the heart of what I would say too.
CT - you are loved. In spite of it all... you are loved. Don't ever forget that. You are loved by guys here, and you are worthy of that love my friend.
Yes, I hear you. I see you. I feel you.
I have to write that down and read it to know that this is true. I feel that love. Its what i've been missing in my life. Love from people that don't know me but know the true me. The authentic me.
Gosh, this is cool because I admire your posts so much. You write so well, everything is so easy to understand, concise, eloquent, thoughtful, organized and I can understand what you mean right away.
I write from the heart, i'm honest and even if it brings me tears that no one sees--i am truly happy to have made these connections here.
I feel safe.
I'm in a safe space.
No one can hurt me here.
Thank you for taking the time to reply my friend ❤