Hard. Boy. Pizza . 4 yrs old .
You better eat, faggot !
I'm lonely, struggling, loser,
wanting to find a place,
Never going to be 9 again.
Have to eat so nobody can know.
I'm special, not good.
Have no choice. Cousin, I hurt her.
So my aunt says.
My sperm donor likes her more than me.
Can't go home, can't go back to those years, say what I want...? I will always lose. Back. If I find out by feeling,
That's why , attention, don't know why my male parent needs me so much.
I erased my brain. They told me I want to die. My dad didn't care.
My mom isn't allowed....I never learned to play. I never learned period!
So how come I still care?
I am lonely and keep thinking,
I keep wanting connections and friends.
I am starting, new. Keep going forward.
I am lonely and scared.
But I.I'm alive, that's good.
I can talk, I can feel.
I can feel the need to want to be wanted.
Careful, don't trust him.
It's hard. I have to care about people...
I'm not responsible for my dad or my mom. Tragic.
Have to create a life for myself.
Love you guys. And thanks .
J