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I wanst allowed to be . yorgure. my
brain has to think for them. he is loser.
they are all losers, even my mom.
how can you talk tlike this ? ahhhh fuck off!
don't need ya.
but I do need moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
so I try focus groups.
"oh I know someone who earns full time pay doing focus groups."
yea. not happening. I have been declined 8 times in the past two weeks.
sign ? yea.
get a life. get a job.
my body. boy dyea. hearut. school. I don't want to go to
school. you cant even spell properly.
get your shit toghe. I am abou to hiet tmyself.asdf
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anyway. I googled donating sperm.
this guy made me allaugh. especially with the photos.
http://www.cracked.com/article_19497_6-terrifying-things-nobody-tells-you-about-donating-sperm.html
a giu was [ameomd ,e amd o tjpigjt ot was ,mine sperm donro. i had a panic.
im scared of being him.
shit nationality.
sorry ton sant mpis wnyone off.
sorry.
i can be smeart. i can spell. i miss grade 1 i miss the smell
i miss the blackborard. i miss that. once i thought. i had to sereperatr my self and only tink of bilie. cunt!
i never want to be mental for anyone ever again. too bad i cant earn money with what i ve learned.
i dont want my want you se e ite my dad. he istn you canlie all you want bitch.
if you cared. yo would bicit. you want them. i cant trust you. you like bilie so do way. stay . i dont want you
love him. i have to start over. the beinning. oh well start over.
i hate my mom. and that wasnt what i asked for. nobody let me love her.
they kept saying stuff. and his eyes i had to be scared of h im. he told me stuff. i think this is why i stopped everything.
i was scared that i would become him. that w why my therpai is different. i dont know who to go to
but malesurvivor is helping. even just posting ifeel like i matter. . actually a guy said referring to himseelf. i quote
sl;kfj; my brain gets dialougue quickly and it feels like everyone is listening. hmm. wonder why that is
the gentleman said " I am relevant, I matter" , and something else
i will never be a writer so let that go. i wont be a movie star. that can go. i can be a public speaker. my legs cant handle all that time.
what if they dont like what i say? what if i make people stressed , then ...sa;dklfjal;fjk
dont want you. you are not my father. and i dont want you. and i have my rights. i want to live.
i shouldnt be sorry. you all should be sorry. sl;dkfjas;djdfkl; a;sldfjksd;s;adlfjk hate feelings. sometimes.
hate hate. but thing is when you do this shit its hard not to. you dont want me. if you wanted me you would have stopped.
you threw me away. what about those times when you called me a pig. while eating. that fucked me up.
you want blowjobs get it from an adult who wants to. not me. dumb cunt! and then bozna.what aoub ther that bitch she haets me , why?
she didnt want me to have love. really. she dint. all you guys focues on helping bilie . that what happens. no more. i am scared of wanting
women. dont know my amgea.you. you want me to feel like a girl. and now what. my brother cant see me. he may be terrified. for his reasons.
my sisnter in law can be thinking whatever. i dont know her. i have to think like these idiots. and help them. you really fucked me up.
ipa shouldnt have to read this. or malesurvivor. why dont you fly around crying for help. needing a dad. you are proud to be a coward.
i feel ashamed of you. i needed one to protect me , not laugh at me. especialy at my genitals. i am very scarred. when are you coming to visit? try never.
if i see you , i will kill myself. i cant go see him. and you want me to think "oh this is your dad." no x that one out. he is nothing. he needs someone
he never let me talk. to not. wamy thiga. i dont know who to talk to. i am very lucky. very very lucky. i could have died. if it wasnt for my friend eddy in grade 6
and chaucer and primal therapy , meaning bob ,ipa , ms , will, shawn , jayme i would be screwed, its very important to be me grateful and love these
what if i killed my mom. all be/c your wife bozna hates her. and for what? you guys changed it all. all of it and for what . you see how you made me very mentally ill. and why ?
you don't know m beter. ? you want bilie to have it all. now what
you arelonley now you think of them . you don't want me youwantthem youa re very scik I could have dies ofr k illed. my thinking coultn work. your dad is gay bilie . you are pussies!
cops what are the cops going to do? of you poor guy. how did you survive. ? so you want us to go to your dad's brother's place and have him accept being gay. not happening!
why? cuz this isn't our problem that s his problem.
htat why i dont care to see you. i lost my mom since birth taht bitch bozna beat the shit ouf of me. you dont care. you want it both ways.
you want bilie to hav it all. and i get i no purberty. no friends. cant look at anyone in the eye. what the fuck ? how is i this rigfht. hope .
I wioll never look back. never. why doesn't bilile go to tell
my nieces and nephews that I cant see them. bucz of this.
this is my feelings. I am to feel their shit? .
i dont want to take care of them. aquit asking for help fuck em. let them go. i learn bye brother. fuck. this is my head. its hard to enjoy life.
they beat me up so they wouldnt beat their own ik kids up. they know this. biili knows this. that s why i hav rage. you dont care. you want me to eat.
that s why I cant see Darren or james. not happening.
i am not responsbile for this. i need dad. comfort. not beat me up. pull my pants down. this is terribel, this is shit. i dont even fit in support groups!
I can see how suicide is alive. I cant run from this. have
to dace it dahe on. cant read this
trust si their problem no. they want it all but they dont want to do the work in building relationships or knowding their mistakes. no what they want me to feel their shit while
eating. this is sick. I cant enjoy life. yes you can
fuck ioff go back home stupid. I don't want to know anyone
anymore.
asd;fljkasd;fjkl ksldfsdjkl;fsdfjkl thanks guys and gals here. thanks malesurivvor. wish i had money to give.