I don't know quite what to say.
Other than my assault has completely ruined my life, and I'm now forced to beg the VA for help while simultaniously fighting them.
I have no friends, no family. I have ostracized every single human who has ever been kind to me. Because I don't know how. I don't know how to even be a human anymore, and I don't know what to do.
Being alone, all the time, it's killing my spirit, but I will not quit. If I quit, they win.
I just can't do this alone anymore.
I'm tired all the time. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of fighting the VA. I'm tired of conflict of interests.
NOTHING in my life works, at ALL.
I'm tired of the tears that just will NOT STOP COMING.
So I came here. Because after finally telling what happened... It's just become worse. I couldnt hold it anymore. I can't.
And now that I've said it, its sooo much worse.
This has never ended for me. There is NO peace.
I live with this every moment of every day now, when I had put this in a box and shut it away.
It did not heal. it FESTERED. I feel ROTTEN.
I don't know who to trust or where to go.
I have no friends, no family. I have ostracized every single human who has ever been kind to me. Because I don't know how. I don't know how to even be a human anymore, and I don't know what to do.
Being alone, all the time, it's killing my spirit, but I will not quit. If I quit, they win.
I just can't do this alone anymore.
I'm tired all the time. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of fighting the VA. I'm tired of conflict of interests.
NOTHING in my life works, at ALL.
I'm tired of the tears that just will NOT STOP COMING.
So I came here. Because after finally telling what happened... It's just become worse. I couldnt hold it anymore. I can't.
And now that I've said it, its sooo much worse.
This has never ended for me. There is NO peace.
I live with this every moment of every day now, when I had put this in a box and shut it away.
It did not heal. it FESTERED. I feel ROTTEN.
I don't know who to trust or where to go.