i did it ,thanks to all of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thank god i found this place,with your help my life is changing so fast. you are my courage ,you are my hope .yesterday i met with my good for nothing family at the lawyers office ,as he read my grans will i watched my family ,my gran reached out from the grave and let them know how badly they failed as human beings ,she said she was leaving them just what they gave me NOTHING!at that point cell phones came out lawyers were called they are contesting the will . she went on to explain why she had changed her will and how ashamed of them she was .then they wanted to go to my grans house to take some of her personal things ,but it is my house now i told them i would let them come to the house but that i needed to talk to them and they would listen or they could just leave now with nothing.my dad was going off on me saying i had conned my gran into giving me everything ,that she was too sick to change her will ,that they would fight this ,i told him that i had learned how to fight during my time in hell and they were in for a battle. as i drove to the house i rehearsed what i wanted to say when i got there i felt so calm ,so ready for this ,i credit this site for that if anyone is interested i will post our conversation on the unmoderated forum .i think that with your help i grew up yesterday ,for the first time ever i felt like a man .i acted like a man .somehow i went from a scared little boy to a man ,a very pissed off man .i am no longer ashamed of who i am or what happened to me .yesterday the lion roared!!! as i talked to my family i felt each one of you there with me ,that gave me the strength to say my peace and damn i feel so good about myself for the first time ever ,i finaly did something right!!! i'm having computer problems but i will post the whole thing on the other forum as soon as i can get this damn thing to work a little better SHADOW
Adam I hope you will keep us posted about how things are working out.