I came out!
Happy New Year! I hope to have a very new one...
I am 21 and I have my entire life ahead of me.
I am looking forward to it for the first time in my life. Not too long ago I was very depressed about the future. I hated looking ahead and seeing nothing but more confusion.
I am a third year engineering student. I have done everything right with regards to getting myself ready for a career. I have more prospects than most of my friends. I am an extremely fun person to be around. Never a dull moment with me. I am often told this and that I am a great friend. I have some great friends too. But more importantly I have my health. I am fit, I swim almost everyday. I have a great relationship with my family. They will always be there for me.
I am writing all this as a realisation for myself that I am such a lucky person. Sometimes we need to say things like this to ourselves to make us feel better right? Its my way of making me feel better. Perspective, I think thats what they call it.
"Why in the world should I be depressed, things are bloody great!"
My SA isn't bothering me much lately. I still have the odd low moment but the fact that I am where I am today is inspiration for me to go further. I feel stronger. Am I wrong to feel better than others because I went through what I went through and came out fine in the end? My SA came back to haunt me a few months ago and I decided to get help and ultimately get over it. I think I have done just that. I know it'll never be gone completely but the good exceeds the bad so to speak and thats what matters to me.
Is this worthy of posting in here? I just had to post as it was in the last few days I came out to my two best friends and they are so cool about it. I've never felt like this before and I like it. Maybe my 'coming out' situation is a lot easier than others may be faced with but I'd like to say that putting aside what others think was the most important thing for me. I do care what others think but I realise I will think worse of me than they will. Low self esteem being one of my problems. I have to constantly remind myself of this.
Anyway thanks for reading if you got this far I just wanted to update MS on me. I havnt posted since autumn.
Conor
I am 21 and I have my entire life ahead of me.
I am looking forward to it for the first time in my life. Not too long ago I was very depressed about the future. I hated looking ahead and seeing nothing but more confusion.
I am a third year engineering student. I have done everything right with regards to getting myself ready for a career. I have more prospects than most of my friends. I am an extremely fun person to be around. Never a dull moment with me. I am often told this and that I am a great friend. I have some great friends too. But more importantly I have my health. I am fit, I swim almost everyday. I have a great relationship with my family. They will always be there for me.
I am writing all this as a realisation for myself that I am such a lucky person. Sometimes we need to say things like this to ourselves to make us feel better right? Its my way of making me feel better. Perspective, I think thats what they call it.
"Why in the world should I be depressed, things are bloody great!"
My SA isn't bothering me much lately. I still have the odd low moment but the fact that I am where I am today is inspiration for me to go further. I feel stronger. Am I wrong to feel better than others because I went through what I went through and came out fine in the end? My SA came back to haunt me a few months ago and I decided to get help and ultimately get over it. I think I have done just that. I know it'll never be gone completely but the good exceeds the bad so to speak and thats what matters to me.
Is this worthy of posting in here? I just had to post as it was in the last few days I came out to my two best friends and they are so cool about it. I've never felt like this before and I like it. Maybe my 'coming out' situation is a lot easier than others may be faced with but I'd like to say that putting aside what others think was the most important thing for me. I do care what others think but I realise I will think worse of me than they will. Low self esteem being one of my problems. I have to constantly remind myself of this.
Anyway thanks for reading if you got this far I just wanted to update MS on me. I havnt posted since autumn.
Conor
right on!!!!