Hypervigilance and Startle Responses

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Hypervigilance and Startle Responses

Can any one explain what causes this hypervigilence and the startle responses that make my heart pound so hard?

I recognize them, but don't remember when they started. Seems like I have always had them.

Was this because of the CSA or the extreme physical abuse?

Marc
 
Both the SA and the physical abuse are causes. A double whammy.

Been there, do that. It sucks.

Take care,
Bill
 
Yup. Been there too, Marc. I remember startling if my stepdad would make a quick movement... and then he would hit me for thinking he was going to hit me.

I feel like I've always had the hypervigilence, especially trying to get to sleep or just coming home... anywhere there is a feeling of not knowing what is coming or what is around the corner. I think both the SA and the physical abuse have a lot to do with the startle response... sorry you have to deal with this. PM me if you need to.
 
Marc,
I am sorry you are suffering, my brother!
((((((((((((((((((((MARC)))))))))))))))))))))))))
Casey
 
Marc

sorry but hypervigilance starts the day the csa starts, with us for life but we must live with it.

It's all part of the survival kit, given to us by our infinitely powerful inner minds, that and all the other tools we don,t see, but we have all used to get us to this point in our lives.
 
There is much research going on regarding how trauma affects brain function and chemistry and even causes physical changes in the brain. There is some good research by Bessel vander Kolk and Jim Hopper that, while somewhat technical, is state of the art and very interesting.

You could go to Jim's website, www.jimhopper.com or link to it from this site (professionals, web resources). Or do a google on "brain research + trauma".

Ken
 
Ken,

Thanks for the link. A lot there to digest. Will keep reading on it. A wealth of information is there.

Marc
 
Marc - I had the hypervigilence for most of my life. Somehow it created a protective barrier around me - if I went out to bars with friends, I could drink until the cows came home & I never appeared drunk to anyone else.

Now that I am dealing/coping with the abuse stuff (about bloody time), my hypervigilence is receding rapidly & people comment on the fact that the booze has more impact on me....I am more relaxed so allow the alcohol to do what it is meant to! *Alochol is now a pleasure rather than a drowning aid! I trust those around me & the locations that I am in - if I relax, I am not constantly concerned that something is going to happen to me when I drop my guard.

best wishes ....Rik

*Sometimes I type things & know what I mean - I just don't always know if I've said it right!
 
Check out Peter Levine's book called "Waking The Tiger - Healing Trauma" and check out the website www.traumahealing.com

I will share more here later about my workshop that is dealing with releasing trauma in the body. I've learned a lot today and experienced a lot.
 
In the workshop I just completed this weekend on Trauma and the body, I've learned a lot about what trauma and/or stress does to the body. It affects the body in a chemical and biological way.

I'm going to try and give some information that I learned this weekend and hopefully it will help. If I don't explain something well, please ask me as it will help me learn too. Hopefully I've not over simplified it to the point that it sounds more confusing than helpful.

We have two primary nervous systems.(well three when you count the enteric nervous system). The parasympathetic is the "rest and repair" system while the sympathetic is the "fight or flight" system.

When the body encounters a situation where there is a threat or a danger, the sympathetic nervous system kicks in. Basically the sympathetic nervous system stops higher level thinking and focuses on the part of the brain that is needed to solve the crisis. At the same time, the heart increases blood flow, the lungs increase oxygen and the muscles get ready to engage in a strong and powerful way. Digestion also shuts down and any unnecessary body functions that will not help the "fight or flight" response are shut down. In this state we are in a "hyper vigilant state because we are trying to assess the threat or danger.

Normally in a biological system, after the threat or danger has passed, than all systems should go back to homeostasis or balance. When we encounter trauma, what we hear, see, feel, smell or take in can become frozen in our body in some way. Take for instance someone being in a car accident and just before impact, their body freezes in place. That event is then energy which is kept within the body. Unless that energy is disapated, it remains there. As long as it remains there, it keeps the sympathetic nervous system working and does not allow the body to return to homeostasis. Once there is intervention to disapate that stored energy or frozen memory from the body, than the body is able to return to homeostasis.

In the parasympathetic nervous system, it is the rest and repair or the one that rebuilds us and heals us. Our body has a core way of knowing what to do to repair parts of ourself that are damaged. However we as a society do not alway allow ourselves to get to the place of relaxation for "rest and repair" like we should.

There is also the Enteric nervous system which was the focus of this workshop and it deals with the "gut". The gut brain as it is also called produces 95% of the serotonin found in the body. It also produces dozens of other substances like Valium and Xanax. Serotonin of course is the ecstasy neurotransmitter which is involved in depression, anxiety and fear. The enteric nervous system is a meshwork of nerve fibers that connect the viscera like the gastrointestinal tract, pancreas, and gall bladder. Even though there is one of the cranial nerves (Cranial Nerve #10 called the Vagus nerve) attached to this same area, it is not always the best and quickest conductor to the brain of what is going on. If the response is not fast enough when the body is presented with a danger or threat, the gut brain has the capability to take over and release the things that it needs to in order to deal with the stress or trauma. So much of the energy of the emotions surrounding particular events are stored in the gut. This has an adverse affect on the release of serotonin and the other substances.

There is so much more to all of this and while I have a much better understanding of it, I find it a little difficult to explain. So if I have done nothing but confused everyone, please feel free to ask me and I will try to explain more. Also check out the website called www.traumahealing.com as there is a wealth of information there.

I am beginning to understand through this workshop just how much stress and the big whopper "trauma" affect the body. If these things are left in the body, than they affect the body in so many ways that our society just treats as "medical conditions". That's a long discussion in itself.

Don
 
I am sure it is an affect from the abuses. We get all confused as to what to expect, I think we expect more the negative or scary things. And we get so used to being scared or hurt, that we expect that also. Any touch will be bad, hurtful. Any noise is signal of bad things to happen. We must always be on alert of things. I think it is common thing. I know that it does get better, although there may be times when we backslide some and it is worse for while. But I am not quite as 'jumpy' of things as I use to be, other then extreme loud noises and things that make me nervous elsewise.

Leosha
 
This is off the wall and probably inappropriate. But on the night before last a bolt of lightening struck the side of the house while I was sitting on the patio. Not 15 fee from where I was sitting. It put a great big dent in the sheet metal siding. My startle response was slow to kick in. By the time I had curled into a shivering ball it was way to late to do any good. It would have been easier to duck the back of my step-dads hand.

Sometimes we learn to get out of the way of that which we can reasonably avoid. We seem to forget that sometimes there is nothing to be avoided, or nothing we can avoid. I work alone at night. My supervisor has a habit of sneaking up on people and trying to make them jump. He has never done that to me. On the first day I told him that if he ever did, one of us was going to die. It would depend on if I had a heart attack or survived to deliver justice.

I guess my point is this: vigilance isnt always hyper, hyper isnt always wrong, and everyone ducks when lightening strikes.

Aden
 
May provide Triggers!!!

I remember getting up and going to the toilet at night, the night is a time of relative quiet, from the point of getting out of bed to actually getting to the toilet was a big ordeal.

Creeping quietly to the door of the room, sometimes getting spooked before getting to the door, what was behind the door? Door open into the bathroom and peeing as fast as you can,rushing to get back into the relative safety of your bed! that's when you even made it that far, sometimes freezing and having to pee the bed or worse, sometimes getting really spooked as a shadow crosses the outside lights. We freeze.

Heart pumping, conscious of every breath and breathing so heavily, sweat and terror engulfing you.

Getting back to bed to do some more crying, boys' don't cry, teddy soaked in tears as he is the only one who cares, sometimes it was my cat who never left my side, she even survived the crying and the almost overpowering hugs, but she was always there. She understood the boy was hurt, the only cat that followed me just like a dog, what a pet.

Still remember my little cat, the cat who cared, we know cats do their own thing, but she gave me so much love I will never forget.

Sorry about being so dramatic

ste
 
You describe symptoms that I am all to familiar with but let me comment on the heart pounding. I lived for 18 years with a minor heart ailment, basically extra thick muscle tissue in my heart that can cause blockage and in bad cases, sudden death. During the upsurge in media coverage of the church crisis I went nuts...pounding heart, more acting out, drinking, obsessing, all of it...I complained to my doctor and he could see nothing...stopped drinking, got sober and the symptoms got WORSE because I was no longer self-medicating...until I almost went out and killed a priest who got released from jail...not even my abuser...but a serial pedophile who was notorious. I got help, fast. I was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder, put on Zoloft and my life got better and better but I then faced two heart operations as the stress had exacerbated my heart trouble so much that my condition worsended considerably. Do NOT ignore the physical symptoms...they are real...make sure you go to a good physician and tell your story.
 
I'm very prone to hypervigilance and an exaggerated startle response. I've been doing a lot of reading over the last few years and Don has provided a very accurate summary of what I've learned.

It's still a problem for me, but it has lessened significantly since I've started working on the abuse. My simple explanation is that the cause (for me) is unprocessed body memories. As I work through them and allow myself to feel them, however slow and painful that process is, the 'alarm'/sympathetic nervous system is slowly learning that it's okay to calm down.
 
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