TRIGGERS- as a result of early abuse I feel I became hyper-sexual.I was willing to let anything happen I was a sex addict & drug & alcohol addict. In my early 20's I had 2 bisexual threesome experiences. I was wasted for both. I had sex with my best friend(at the time) & his wife. I had intercourse with her (my 1st hetero experience) & I gave him head. Then I watched him screw his wife./ Next with another young couple of friends I had intercourse with her while at the same time he screwed me. I was in the middle. I felt that I was at the height of my desirability. Sad right? I felt that validated me as an attractive man, letting anyone have me, whether male/male, male/female, or both. I needed to be desired & wanted & loved and sex meant to me it was true. I had a few hetero experience, and most of my homo sex I was the drunk & wasted passive one, which also led to my rapes as a young adult. Thank God all that crap is over now. That hunger, craving, need.