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survive75

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I'm really hurting today... stayed up all night and now I'm working on no sleep. Came into work late, I'm close to throwing up, and I can't get this flashback out of my head. I've just been on a roller coaster this weekend... almost manic. Really good, then really bad in a matter of hours. I just want out. I'm really hurting and don't know what the hell to do with this shit sometimes when it comes into my head and I can't get it out.

-Sean
 
Sean I have been there.

I tell you what I did was go do something for me and me alone. I dont care if it is walk in the rain or snow. Or go have a great meal in a restaurant. Or go do some kid stuff . Just do it for you. And continully remind yourself that you deserve the fun from whatever you are doing.

What I mean by all this is that I broke the routime and got myself out of the rut so to speak. I mean we live work and breath with the stench of SA and there are times to break out just for ourselves.

Give it a go Sean.
 
I am really sorry Scott,

And all the help you gave me this weekend.

You started out in the right direction posting.

Mikey has a good suggestion there, a good walk and a treat for yourself can help clear the mind. I personally like to go to Bob Evans and have a Sunshine Skillet. A special treat when one is needed.

I do believe I'll be doing that this evening after T.

I hope that things get better,
Bill
 
My brother, Scott,

I feel like I've been ignoring you. But I know what you're going through and I am thinking about you.

My therapist has given me several grounding techniques, such as tightening and releasing all my muscles, deep breathing, and keeping your eyes open when these flashbacks hit. One thing I DO know that works is what i call thought control. When the evil images hit, yell "stop!" to yourself, and think, "I'm not going to think about this right now!" It may last a second or the whole day, but YOU will be controlling the thoughts, not the other way round.

Brother, PM me if you need anything.

Peace and love,

Scot
 
Sean - I'm going through a patch that I don't understand at the minute but I'm going to get through it.

It sounds like what you are going through is very intense - hell I had that not so long ago and I had to ride it out to get to the other side...it hurt one hell of a lot, but when you get there you know you've done well and the impact of the flash back lessens (doesn't necessarily go away altogether, but the impact fades).

You can get through it Sean...just hang on!

What sort of things do you like...if it's music of any sort, play it as loud as you like ( it can drown some of the other stuff out).

The suggestion of treating yourself is a good one, but I know that when you're going through stuff at this level it can be difficult to think along those lines...try and do it - for yourself and for us.

Scot's idea of saying 'stop' is also a good one, although I say '**** off' repeatedly until it fades.

I also try imagining that I am either on a warm beach somewhere, and that I can hear the waves breaking gently at my feet with the gulls calling in the background, or, that I am lying in a field of grass somewhere tranquil again with the sun shining and birdsong in the background...takes some practice, but is achievable.

Best wishes Sean - stay strong ...RIk
 
Man, I am sorry to hear you were having a really hard time of it yesterday. I hope it is better today.

I have been up and down lately. Some of my mood shifts were happening recently just as you describe yours--changes within hours.

I know some people here don't think much of medication but I will offer this anyway from my own experience because it works for me. A while ago my psychiatrist prescribed a new medication, Lamictal, for me to modify my mood swings. It worked well to begin with and then a couple of days ago when things were getting bad again, I called in and the dosage was doubled. My mood swings are now modified again--the big swings gone. Its a relief. For those who use or are interested in medication, that might be of interest.

I am thinking of you Sean. You know that. It doesn't change. In fact I thought of you and others who have been especially supportive yesterday when things were getting so bad I didn't think I could go on and that and the inner strength I consequently was able to find got me by.

Brett
 
Sean,

I think you have recieved some good advice from these gentlemen, of suggestions how to keep going, how to do something good for yourself. I can relate, to what you say of the mood swings, and how quickly they come about. I do not know I am ever like 'manic', but I can often go from 'okay' feeling to very low and down in minutes, depending on what happen in my head. Often, I still do not have control over my emotions, or when the memories or such rise up, the flashbacks, any such thing as those. I try very hard to remind myself of the very good things in my life, to keep myself in a more positive way of thinking, but it is obvious it does not work always. I just hope that as you continue to go through all this, it becomes somewhat easier for you and more within your emotional control. Good luck.

Leosha
 
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