how do you say it

[markgreyblue]

i get to want things

i woke up

and rather than feel beholden or ashamed i was awake

i thought about work - and felt a bit of a puppy wanting help

but i began to maybe believe i would only go for what i wanted anyway - it is - was a transition

and i started to want to go for what i wanted -

- i was always to fill the form rather than go for what i would -

 

[markgreyblue]

and so i started to look for work with desire rather than -

- obedience to a past of abuse -

it's 4 in the morning - and am

really excited -

 

[markgreyblue]

there is somewhere i am looking into!

 

[roadrunner]

Mark,

You are basically saying that you want to live the rest of your life based on hopes for your future rather than despair over the past. I can't think of any better attitude.

Much love,
Larry

 

[michael Joseph]

mark hope you are feeling better sorry I missed your message to go to chat

your friend mike