Homeostasis versus entropy

Homeostasis versus entropy
G

Grobut

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I could not relate to you the number of times i have been told that my goal as a survivor should be the persuit of a "normal life", nor could i adequately explain my frustration when presented with this goal.

Fact is, something very abnormal happened to me when i was a child, an event that permanently marked me, that has left deep scars in both my body and mind, and as is the nature of scars, they will remain with me for the durration of my life, in one form or another, in truth, i am damaged goods, i am not "Joe Average".

Now i could sit here and wallow in self pity over this fact, and i could try to remake myself as Joe Average, but it is all futile, i cannot live a lie to please others, i am not that man, and i cannot change my past to become that man.

No, i do not want to persue a "normal life" any longer, i want to persue a "happy life", this is my goal, no more falsehoods or sweeping it all under that rug, and i will not be ashamed if it ends up looking different than what i was told it should be, it is time to stop crying about what was and what will never be, and find my own path, its out there somewhere, and i will find it eventually, nomatter how much work it takes to get there.
 
Maybe one of those paths you're finding leads you here. I hope so. It's a good place.
Best wishes for you.
Steve
 
Grobut

I know exactly how you feel I took so many wrong turns through the guidence of others and their controlling behaviour. I have taken many rough roads but at last I am on a road that is leading somewhere, I just got to keep on checking the map to see if I am still on course, follow that path you feel most comfortable at the moment I am in the middle lane, doing a steady 45 mph and not going too fast in my recovery.

Your determined and you will get on that right road.

Kirk

"The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing". - Albert Einstein
 
I think the most dangerous thing here is feeling we are not good enough, because we still have issues to struggle with, and still dont allways "fit in".

Pap to it all, instead i will ask "are you happy?", and the day i can answer that question with a resounding YES!, i have done what must be done.
 
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