Leosha,
Memories are shadows and echoes. They may be strong now, but you are stronger.
I know you are stronger, because even at this very bad time, YOU FIND YOUR WAY TO THIS BOARD, TO ALL OF US, AND YOU ASK FOR HELP.
You aren't alone, and you are cared for probably more than you realize.
Those memories are really weak now because they can't keep you from us or from this board.
They are only shadows and echoes, Leosha. You are real, now is real, this place is real.
Hold on to all this Leo. You will get even stronger and these memories will get weaker and smaller.
Donald