Hi

[Pytbull]

Just new here and thought I would share my story. I had always thought something had happend to me when I was younger. I had a break through a week or so ago. I was talking to an old friend about our neighbour hood we lived in. Then it came back to me ,well bits and peices. I was only 6 or so and was taken advantage of from a neighbour who was about 14 ,as well as a female babysitter (seperate incidents). i cant remember alot of what happen or how many times but the 2 I do remember are vivid.

I told my wonderfull and understanding wife. We decided I need to talk to some one but i am still a little ashamed at what happend. I know tht it wasnt my fault ,I still need to get over that.

 

[KMCINVA]

Pytbull

You are taking a major step in healing. The memories over time return as we learn to release what we bottled up for a lifetime. Thinking it would be best to let the past lie, but it is too disturbing and the mind can only hold in for so long.

Take your time, share when you are comfortable. Seeking professional help is important. Make sure you find someone who understands trauma and CSA. Too many medical professionals are not verse in this area and dispense advise that only makes the situation worse.

Also your wife should seek some support, because CSA is a difficult thing to deal with as a survivor and supporter. You are fortunate to have a wonderful wife who recognizes your need for help.

Remember it was not your fault, begin to look at it from the child's mind. A child is incapable of preventing such abuse. The abuser can manipulate a child's mind.

Take your time and I heal well. We are here to support each other.

Kevin

 

[lostc]

Sorry to hear about what happened, I was also taken advantage of by older females I think, the ages were more or less the same the first time too, I've found it hard too. Glad though that you want to deal with it and get help for it though, good luck.

 

[kcinohio]

Welcome to the MS forums. Hope you find help and support here. I've found this to be a good resource for healing along these lines.

 

[Bluedogone]

Hi Pytbull and Welcome,

Unfortunately, shame is one of the many emotions shared by so many folks here. You made a giant step forward in joining the MS group, because you'll find here a supportive and understanding group, pretty much like your great wife. Healing and recovery is a process, a very slow and measured process, but nonetheless worth the effort.
Good luck, my thoughts are with you as you continue to recall the past, and deal with it.

 

[victor-victim]

welcome to our corner of the web.

i sincerely hope that you find something to work with here.
there is a world within our world wherein we survivors of SA exist.
i am truly sorry that you have found yourself here, however...
i wish you well on your journey of self discovery,
as self awareness leads to recovery.


may you find something good for you.
there is so much depth and value on this website,
i have found it to be a treasury.
a bank account of emotions from which i can withdraw and deposit.
you can go back in time to find your own voice.
you will find yourself in these pages.