Help

[Christian]

I have sunk into a huge lull in my life. I don't want to move further, and I can't go back. Nothing is appealing. This started after my last session in therapy It kicked my ass. I can't get over anythign. I am an emotional wreck. To top this off, I am by myself. My friends either graduated or left for home this summer. I live at my college stil, but I don't have a job so I just sit at home and wait for my apartment mates to come home. I am so isolated. This dose nothing to help Ive tried to contact my friends, but they don't have internet, and I don't have a car. I just want to be in a good mood again. Everything seems so futle. School therapy love life. I don't want to seem over dramtic, but I am loosing the point ot everything. What is the point to go to school if I only keep doing the same thing over and over agian. What is the point of therapy, Im never goign to be the same. all I do is learn to walk with a limp. Im stiff different, Im still cripled, I am just more socially acceptable. SO basicly Im not here to help myslef I m here to be become mor elike myslef or at least what I should of been.
With in the last week I feel like Ive lost so many of my answers. This all use to mena something, but now I rationalize it. It all just seems so fruitless.
I knwo I sound like Im trying to get attention, but I am nto. I waht so much jsut to find help.
WHy am I not normal. Why don't I have the chocolate and vinilla choices, not the cod liver or cow tongue.
I just don't know.
My email is [email protected] I would appreciate anythign.

 

[fmighell]

Hello,
Why e-mail?, what's wrong with here?
It's safe out in the open, is it not so?
And some times I see guys, not put a NAME of place, or what they do, and it's because of not trusting anyone or maybe someone, will find out they log on to this site.
Really, I think I was like that for some time though. Even when talking to new friends, I'm not going to let them know, or risk them finding out about my abuse, no way man. I'm keeping this secreat because I've done so for so long, that is what I do best and the only way I know how to deal with it, the abuse.
Today I really don't keep my secreat. I find some, I can talk about things and not having to worry.
fmighell Anc Ak

 

[Brian B14]

Hang in there buddy. You are going through a tough time right now. Take my word for it, it does get better.

It may help just to write out you issues. If you want to post them, thats great (if not, thats ok too). It may help getting them down on paper so you can organize your thoughts and not get so overwhelmed. You are not going through anything that someone here hasn't been through already. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. We are here to help you.

Brian

 

I just wanted to say to hang in there man. I want to say something inspirational here to cheer you up, but the only thing I can say is don't give up. There is always hope, and as long as you don't give in, you'll be fine. I hope that makes some sense, just keep fighting, and you'll be alright.

 

[SoCalJohn]

I am 46, been through a few hills and valleys along the way, about the only thing i know for sure is that things change, give it some time, find a way to get through the really tough spells without hurting yourself and take the time to enjoy the good times when they show up.

Its a lot like sitting on a surfboard riding the swells, they lift you up and they put you back down, its all cyclical, none of it is permanent, some have short cycles, some have long cycles, give yourself the gift of patience and just go with the flow, it will change.

Keep talking and hang in there, ok?

John