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Greetings, again I speak here, my apologies for the computer translator, but nevertheless I learn. Mine ' the human translator ' is absent right now.
Right now, it - such time of change I think. It will be some hard time within several months even as - only I start to understand it, that it is not correct. It it is wrong, that occurs in our family. I think inside, it always is known, yes, it is wrong. But also and, other pressure occur.
I read here the some people, people which speak about the memoirs, returned later. Not that I overlook concerning things, or I have no memoirs. But I did not afflict, when it happens. It - now, last months, I grieve my daughter who has died almost 5 years ago. When it happens, her mother and I, each of us we accuse ourselves and another. We consider each other incorrectly, we have such pain and fault. I feel a lot of shame of that now, and I hope, that I can find her again, only be capable to speak with her and to apologize for mine of behaviour.
It is difficult, to start to deal very much with all this emotion of things, all at once. But it happens, it happens, as it does, we do not choose it. It chooses us.
I shall come back to my native land, my domestic city, the next month. And it causes me some fear, also, as my family - there. I shall be happy to spend more time with my sister. But I suspect, that more difficult will support seperate from my parents when I am in the same city. But it is valid, how we know our bravery or our strength if it is not checked up? Bravery show in days of fear, also, as character is checked up by darkness. It will be good test for me of both.
I really inform on something positive here, I know, that it is insignificant to anyone, but direct. But the new medicine from which I receive a dose several weeks ago, it is so very confident to me. I wake up in some mornings without a pain. It - years as it happens. Other days, it - the some people, but not so. At night, after full day, yes, it is different and there is a pain. But I feel much more easy in my heart from presence of smaller quantity of a pain. It helps very much.
I thank all here, there are the some people, who is very kind to speak with me confidentially, and others which give advice to me here. All here, you are strong, you have my respect and admiration for you. Thanks.
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Right now, it - such time of change I think. It will be some hard time within several months even as - only I start to understand it, that it is not correct. It it is wrong, that occurs in our family. I think inside, it always is known, yes, it is wrong. But also and, other pressure occur.
I read here the some people, people which speak about the memoirs, returned later. Not that I overlook concerning things, or I have no memoirs. But I did not afflict, when it happens. It - now, last months, I grieve my daughter who has died almost 5 years ago. When it happens, her mother and I, each of us we accuse ourselves and another. We consider each other incorrectly, we have such pain and fault. I feel a lot of shame of that now, and I hope, that I can find her again, only be capable to speak with her and to apologize for mine of behaviour.
It is difficult, to start to deal very much with all this emotion of things, all at once. But it happens, it happens, as it does, we do not choose it. It chooses us.
I shall come back to my native land, my domestic city, the next month. And it causes me some fear, also, as my family - there. I shall be happy to spend more time with my sister. But I suspect, that more difficult will support seperate from my parents when I am in the same city. But it is valid, how we know our bravery or our strength if it is not checked up? Bravery show in days of fear, also, as character is checked up by darkness. It will be good test for me of both.
I really inform on something positive here, I know, that it is insignificant to anyone, but direct. But the new medicine from which I receive a dose several weeks ago, it is so very confident to me. I wake up in some mornings without a pain. It - years as it happens. Other days, it - the some people, but not so. At night, after full day, yes, it is different and there is a pain. But I feel much more easy in my heart from presence of smaller quantity of a pain. It helps very much.
I thank all here, there are the some people, who is very kind to speak with me confidentially, and others which give advice to me here. All here, you are strong, you have my respect and admiration for you. Thanks.
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