I don't know exactly how to start. I suppose I should say that I joined NOMSV several months ago, but I haven't felt ok about doing this until now. I am almost 41 years old. My whole life is a complete wreck, it always has been, actually. Two hospitalizations, SSD, etc. The sexual abuse ended when I was 9, but the physical and emotional abuse continued until I left at the age of 22, to go into a hospital. Eventually I suppose I will feel comfortable in discussing things in some detail (if that is appropriate within this forum), but not today. To close this posting, I must say that I do not believe that I will be able to make any kind of meaningful recovery, I'm afraid, but...here I am, anyway.