hello men!

[bec]

hello everyone:

it has a been a while since i posted on this board. lately i have been posting on the AT RISK board on the members section of this site.

so what i want to say is i am a 40 year old survivor of emotional incest that took place over the first 35 years of my life. my mother was the perpetrator and my father emotionally abandoned me shortly after birth. he is a practicing addict (workaholic).

i am unemployed and struggling. being a man without work is really a tough thing to be. i slept only 4 1/2 hours last night due to emotional pain. the two substances that i typically use to numb my pain are food and masturbation to pornography.

so, i am feeling pretty crappy right about now. i wanted to share that with you all.

i am very glad this site and board exists. it means much to me since this is the only source of support i have.

i have been in therapy in my past and i once belonged to a men's support group. however, i am not a part of either anymore.

men, i feel better now that i wrote this. i think i will leave. may our Gods bless and strenghthen us all. sincerely,

bec

 

[Lloydy]

Bec
to share it lightens the load, keep sharing my friend.

Dave

 

[guy43]

Hey Bec,

Hang in there, like L. says, sharing does help.

Being unemployed must really suck. The job market is so discouraging at this time. However, I believe it will turn around. Just like we can bounce back from bad times, so does the economy. Weird eh? Comparing abuse survivors to the economy...

-jer

 

[Wuamei]

Well, our economy certainly is abused! And unquestionably dysfunctional!

Don't know if the thot of this makes me wanna laugh or cry .

I think I'll go with laugh...

Wuame

 

[fhorns]

Bec, your posting was blunt. I have found bluntness to shake me out of my denial lately. I was taken back by your honesty. Damn, you have more courage than I ever did. PLEASE keep sharing.