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michael Joseph

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Let me know who else is going, esp. from Michigan.
 
iam from around here. i may or may not reply to the post in here. i do not reply to e-mail, it keeps my isolation safe, i will anserw posts and communicate. some one is to cerious, dont pursue me. iam still in the woods where he left me.
 
keep yourself safe thundrbolt, that is important.

I was scared in my group last friday, really scared. when I got home I was alone, and I made sure the doors to the out side of the house were locked, and I locked the bedroom doors. Normally I would not lock my bedroom doors, but I needed to be safe.
 
thanks michael, just the idea of someone knowing is threating i keep all people at bay, for now they only want one thing from me and im descreat with that, just have that problem with closeness that i see here in hell, have been seeing a counciler been thinking of staying with old ways and not changing (makes me feel like im loseing part of my self all the time), dont need group, that will never work. thanks again.
 
Thunderbolt, stay safe, it is ok to do shat you are doing. Change slowly. I have a very good Men's group Sunday night, and they are helping me grow. I have been working on getting better for 28 years. Parts of my life were horrific. Parts were ok, and part of my life were great.
I tend to dwell on the horrific parts, I am changing that now. :confused: :mad: :)
 
the horiffic parts are all there is to think about, what made me this way, is a stigma that will never leave, you and i know that,the changing gives me a head ach that wont quite, i have to whatch the pills sometimes, when i do come to this fourm and type i can forget it for a little while, it is ok then, and its back to the fuck up life again, puting up with people and shit like that, but thanks for the look.
 
Do everything you can to get your mind off it, you are more than you know. The abuse happened to you, you are not the abuse.
RIGHT NOW NOTHING SEEMS RIIGHT, KEEP COMMING BACK I WILL ALWAYS RESPOND TO YOU, I CAN RELATE. I HAVE BEEN SCARED, HURT AND LOST RECENTLY. EVEN AT 38 11/12 YEARS OLD.
 
i just started to have problems with this feeling stuff been posting with manchild what was said has got me in a tale spin cant figur how to reply, dont know if confused or just plan terrified, this thing got my head allfucked up, scared to react, like disapearing,hiding, il try someother post see if i cant snap out of it.
 
I STILL FEEL ALL OF THOSE THINGS, CONFUSION IS LESS, ANGER SEEMS TO BE LESS. I AM PRESENT AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. IT IS HARD SOMETIMES TO KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON. HEAD IS OFF DAYDREAMING.
 
well if some of that stuff helps ill think about it,but it seems the less i have, is the less of me and that pot is perty much empty, counciler says i have to release more but the pain is frightening, some times i feel like its going to kill me.
 
Keep communicating about feelings thunderbolt
even if it is w/ your counselor. Eventially
it improves. It cannot be as bad as it was when it was happening. Find some good in you
you will be surprized at how good you are. It was the abuser that did something wrong.
 
my counseler has cought on to me and my hiding ways, i had a very hard time communicating and she ask if it was easyer to ansewr questions then to be strate open, i said yes now we take a lot more she said go back to writing, i did much better that way, that fucked up but im going to say its ok this time, still sounds weird.
 
Keep communication open Thunderbolt.

Hope you are ok today.

Remember to breathe, if you do not know what to do then breathe.
 
chat room is open.

keep communication lines open fellow
survivors.
 
it has been hot, glad the board is up and running. How are you doing? I had to tell my story many times, and still do inorder to get it out.

Keep getting it out.
 
been working on somethings with the couselor not doing good we are starteing this child within stuff the way it looks i dont think im going to fare very well with it, thanks for the concern.
 
Hope you are doing ok up there, I am doing ok down here in Leonidas, MI.
 
i dont know why but im going for a crash landing, it seems like the pile of crap this world has to offer gets to be bullshit, and thats about all i can take, this place sucks i wish id never been born.
 
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