Hello - I am confused
Hello
I think I have introjects. My math-teacher and my father had a dysfunctional sexuality and that made my sexuality also dysfunctional. It seems that there are two separate ways. Either one distance themselves from sex or they get addicted to it, as a dysfunctional coping mechanism.
This is why a lot of offenders were former victims.
But in the other hand. I was so obsessed with the idea to marry and have a family, that I developed an addiction?
But this wouldn't explain the bi-sexuality, as an example.
But can a simple grabbing and talking about sex in a perverted way could really cause a trauma?
Or could it be, that I lived something else before that?
Another thing is, that I sexualize a lot.
Sometimes I think - I would like to have sex with my friends or even gang bang. I think the reason is, that I am confused about sexual love and "friendship love".
Since I am depressed and take Sertralin, my hyper-sexuality and bi-sexuality stoped.
But there is something else, that concerns me. I loved incest porn.
I am going to have an appointment at a hospital for a trauma therapy, but I don't know what to say. Should I really talk about my weird sexuality? They would notice it in my medical report.
I don't know why, but I think I was raped by my father and the grabbing and talking about sex was just a trigger, which revealed them all. But I need to be sure.
It still could be, that I was just a pervert and my dysfunctional sexuality was a coping mechanism.
Greetings
P.S.: Thanks very very much for the help.
I think I have introjects. My math-teacher and my father had a dysfunctional sexuality and that made my sexuality also dysfunctional. It seems that there are two separate ways. Either one distance themselves from sex or they get addicted to it, as a dysfunctional coping mechanism.
This is why a lot of offenders were former victims.
But in the other hand. I was so obsessed with the idea to marry and have a family, that I developed an addiction?
But this wouldn't explain the bi-sexuality, as an example.
But can a simple grabbing and talking about sex in a perverted way could really cause a trauma?
Or could it be, that I lived something else before that?
Another thing is, that I sexualize a lot.
Sometimes I think - I would like to have sex with my friends or even gang bang. I think the reason is, that I am confused about sexual love and "friendship love".
Since I am depressed and take Sertralin, my hyper-sexuality and bi-sexuality stoped.
But there is something else, that concerns me. I loved incest porn.
I am going to have an appointment at a hospital for a trauma therapy, but I don't know what to say. Should I really talk about my weird sexuality? They would notice it in my medical report.
I don't know why, but I think I was raped by my father and the grabbing and talking about sex was just a trigger, which revealed them all. But I need to be sure.
It still could be, that I was just a pervert and my dysfunctional sexuality was a coping mechanism.
Greetings
P.S.: Thanks very very much for the help.
