hello again...great news
IrishKipley
Registrant
Hi guys....
it's been a while since i have posted here. i've had so much going on and was struggling more than usual with feelings of disgust for myself...just a state of mind i get in sometimes. things are better now though, thankfully....and something great has happened (or at least i think it is)
i proposed to my girlfriend and she said YES. this is the best thing that has happened to me...EVER. this past weekend we took a trip to see her grandparents. they raised her and i had never met them before. i was really nervous, but they were really nice and supportive and seemed to like me
the only bad thing about the trip was that i always seem to have more graphic, disturbing flashbacks/nightmares when i am away from home. i don't know if this happens to others? or if it is just me. i guess maybe the stress could have brought them on...i don't know. it was just really hard trying to be sociable when i was trying to deal with all of those feelings. i wanted to make a good impression and i think i did...but theres always that nagging voice in my head that whispers i probably made a fool of myself. i'm finding it rather hard to get back in the swing of things at work since i've been back, but i'm trying really hard at everything. i really have missed coming here and it's nice to be able to post again too. my computer had been out of commission for a few days as well...ahhhh, a day in the life *LOL*
Happy Holidays
Kip
it's been a while since i have posted here. i've had so much going on and was struggling more than usual with feelings of disgust for myself...just a state of mind i get in sometimes. things are better now though, thankfully....and something great has happened (or at least i think it is)
i proposed to my girlfriend and she said YES. this is the best thing that has happened to me...EVER. this past weekend we took a trip to see her grandparents. they raised her and i had never met them before. i was really nervous, but they were really nice and supportive and seemed to like me
the only bad thing about the trip was that i always seem to have more graphic, disturbing flashbacks/nightmares when i am away from home. i don't know if this happens to others? or if it is just me. i guess maybe the stress could have brought them on...i don't know. it was just really hard trying to be sociable when i was trying to deal with all of those feelings. i wanted to make a good impression and i think i did...but theres always that nagging voice in my head that whispers i probably made a fool of myself. i'm finding it rather hard to get back in the swing of things at work since i've been back, but i'm trying really hard at everything. i really have missed coming here and it's nice to be able to post again too. my computer had been out of commission for a few days as well...ahhhh, a day in the life *LOL*Happy Holidays
Kip
