I have a constant whistling in my head, when in complete quietness, think we are seeing a connection here?
You remember what starts hyper?
I think it is part of your brain, mapped to deal with trauma, as someone else said on the boards, it lets out the trauma bit by bit, but you feel that it will never go, then there is a lot to get rid of.
My mind was like, it had split into two, one half dealing with life and the other working as a pressure valve, sometimes the pressure got so intense it took over and you have to find a place to be to just try and relax as much as is possible.
At first it seems impossible to do, but you find somewhere to go which is quiet etc., to me, it was impossible to do for many years, which are mostly blacked out for now, they may return, but only if I want to.
Don't want to put anyone of therapy, but I have read some ugly accounts, if you don't find the right therapist.
Stories of therapists putting false things into your mind and causing havoc, an example is, I convinced myself at 14 that the abuse never happened so I could put it behind me, I seeded my mind into thinking that.
This led to a massive relapse, when the thought came back to me, why was I feeling so shit? Then it came back that the abuse had happened but I could not recollect it, I set about retracing my mind back to the event almost reliving it, I felt I had to do it, why?, because how could you forget what happened, it was so ugly.
You see in the end it will probably be with you for life, but you need to turn it around and become positive about beating it.
Hope this post makes sense, it is only what I perceive not a clinical description.
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