health

[markgreyblue]

i realized today that i was never taught to eat
properly - in fact i have been holding my breath
frequently as well - the breathing cleared my head and also helped me remember -
i have gone with out eating often and have realized that this affects my mood immensely -

my anger and my neurotic-ness today - this afternoon - was squashed by my remembering i had not
eaten well today -

this also in turn triggered the memories of not eating well since my about 9 years old -

the mood swings have been incredible - but they are
calmed somewhat in knowing that food energy is important to keep up - eat balanced and value this - myself - what i eat -
and this will affect me - my response -

my thoughts -

it's wild - i value it now -
i am valuing food
and what i eat -

markgb

 

[Brayton]

Largely due to what I was taught and not taught about food, I have an odd relationship with it also which is affected by and which affects my mood.

If I don't confine myself pretty much to vegetarian, whole and mostly uncooked foods, I feel guilty, self-loathing, and depressed after eating anything else.

 

[ScottyTodd]

Hey Markgb - I think you're talking about "being good to yourself"...respecting your body and what it needs. Glad you shared that because many survivors still punish their bodies for the abuse!

Howard