HATE

HATE
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OKIE MIKE

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Hate is something that eats at your soul . It will slowley destroy you from the inside . It is something that I have fought with for several years . I know that it is destroying the person that I was so many years ago . But I do not know how to find forgivenes for the SOB that raped me that I thought was my friend all of those years ago . I wish that I could find it in my heart to forgive , but I havent done it so far .
 
so sorry michael...i was full of anger..yet it is losing its grip on me.i havent figured out why ..but it has made my life easier..my best to you steve
 
Mike,

I have written (at length) about my journey to forgiveness here. It can be done. Check my stuff out or drop me a line if you want.

Nobby
 
Hate is something that somehow seems to get directed inward over time. It has it's place, if it is used in moderation, but it always seems to come back and bite us in the butt. I'm glad to hear that you are taking a look at it Mike!

Recovery is Possible!

Brian
 
just a thought.....I trying to learn to hate the injustice around me a not the people that cause it....if we hate the people..we hate are ownself and that is self-abuse...we losted we became our own abusers
 
forgive the child....i just finished reading"what ever it takes God"The most difficult things for men to survive...I must forgive the child that I have been blaming for years..Right now in my recovery it is not about him.(THE RAPIST AND KIDNAPPER)who will cry for my child.I will cry for me and MY CHILD
 
Mike, its hard to forgive, but lets face it, we take it out on ourselves.
I hate my older brother right now who abused me mentally in childhood.

I just cannot have him breathing the same air as me because of what he did to me.
I have to find some sort of forgiveness, even for him who has abused me.

He will never recognize it in this world from me, buy maybe his maker will say he will forgive.
Its so strange to even think we have to forgive abusers when its us who were hurt.

Nobody understands CSA and just how much we forgive and get abused for it, etc.
I wish you never got caught up in it, nor me,

ste
 
Mike,
It is not easy to forgive someone that you trusted and were friends with. But, you have to remember that forgiveness is not saying it was OK to do to me what you did. Hate will eat you up, You may never forget by forgiveing you are then able to stop the hate and move on with your life and stop being his victim. God Bless Gary
 
Hi Mike,

I can relate. I know in my mind that hate I feel toward the perps in my past doesn't hurt them, only me. But in my gut, my soul, whatever, sometimes I feel consumed, like I just want to f-ing destroy them. I'm trying to work on forgiveness, or just releasing it, letting go, putting energy into something positive, but I'm not there yet. There was a quote I heard once that went something like, "Resentment is slow poison you take, hoping it will kill the person who hurt you" or something.
anyway, take care
 
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