Hard to bring up
metsfan257
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I don't know who to ask this question to, so I thought I'd ask here.
I have memories of my good friend initiating sex acts with me when he was 7 and I was 6. I remember him initiating it and I remember it feeling good and wanting to do it again because of that. I don't remember having any concept of sex prior to that, but do remember I was always touching myself, so I think I knew it felt good. I have around 5 distinct memories of these acts at different times, including at least one memory where my dad caught us. I don't remember his reaction, but I don't remember being in trouble or anything like that. But that was probably the last time it happened. I'm best friends with him to this day, and we've never discussed it. I assume he remembers as well. I also have memories of masturbating with a male cousin around 10/11 at grandma's house. Definitely one, possibly two instances (not touching each other, just doing it in same room). I don't remember who initiated it, and we've never discussed it.
I had a dad but he was 99% absent due to a drug problem, and my mom worked long hours, so I was kind of on my own. This was in the 80s so there was absolutely no access to information or education about anything. I wouldn't have had any concept of "no one is supposed to touch you down there" My neighbor was my best friend, we did everything together (and was only one year older than me). We both had a penis, and put two and two together that playing with them might feel good. Without anyone to ask even still, I don't know if that's something all boys do / did? I've never discussed this story with anyone (even online) so I don't know what the answers are. While I remember these memories, I never regarded them as "sexual abuse" in the regular sense because we were both kids. My friend came from a fucked up home life and we commiserated because so did I. Maybe he was molested and just acting out what someone did to him... does that make him a "predator", and me a victim? Or is this common (or at least was common in the age it happened)? is it "boys will be boys" wink wink or should I reframe it in my head?
Open to interpretations.
I have memories of my good friend initiating sex acts with me when he was 7 and I was 6. I remember him initiating it and I remember it feeling good and wanting to do it again because of that. I don't remember having any concept of sex prior to that, but do remember I was always touching myself, so I think I knew it felt good. I have around 5 distinct memories of these acts at different times, including at least one memory where my dad caught us. I don't remember his reaction, but I don't remember being in trouble or anything like that. But that was probably the last time it happened. I'm best friends with him to this day, and we've never discussed it. I assume he remembers as well. I also have memories of masturbating with a male cousin around 10/11 at grandma's house. Definitely one, possibly two instances (not touching each other, just doing it in same room). I don't remember who initiated it, and we've never discussed it.
I had a dad but he was 99% absent due to a drug problem, and my mom worked long hours, so I was kind of on my own. This was in the 80s so there was absolutely no access to information or education about anything. I wouldn't have had any concept of "no one is supposed to touch you down there" My neighbor was my best friend, we did everything together (and was only one year older than me). We both had a penis, and put two and two together that playing with them might feel good. Without anyone to ask even still, I don't know if that's something all boys do / did? I've never discussed this story with anyone (even online) so I don't know what the answers are. While I remember these memories, I never regarded them as "sexual abuse" in the regular sense because we were both kids. My friend came from a fucked up home life and we commiserated because so did I. Maybe he was molested and just acting out what someone did to him... does that make him a "predator", and me a victim? Or is this common (or at least was common in the age it happened)? is it "boys will be boys" wink wink or should I reframe it in my head?
Open to interpretations.