had my first appointment with my T today

had my first appointment with my T today
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bc22

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I had my first appointment with my T today. What an odd feeling. It was hard to say the things I did about my past and my hopes and expectations, but it was extremely liberating too. My T is a wonderful person!!! I watched his every motion and it made me feel so good inside to have someone who listen to every single word and showed such a genuine intrest in everything I said. I can say without hesitation that it was a rewarding time and gave me some real hope, and belief in what can be accomplished. For once, I focused on me and not on all the other bull that has surrounded my personal circus. Just wanted to share with my brothers here who have been so supportive and been there for me. I do not know all of you, but I want to thank you for your help in getting me to help myself. I know this was a first session and there was a whole lot of pain!!! But as I said earlier, it gave me real hope for the future.
BC
 
BC,

Congratulations! This was a huge step. It's time to take care of you!

Recovery is Possible,

Brian
 
One of the things my T made me realize, and actually feel good about because of my motives was regarding my wife. She has been angry because I did not deal with this 8 years ago. My T said she should look in the mirror. I was protecting her from my family. I did not tell my family about her affair with my cousin/abuser because I was protecting her from how my family would treat her and from my kids ever finding out. My T said that taking that part of my abuse "off the table of discussion" so to speak, took away my ability to proper deal with the situation. My wife has been making me feel guilty, and in one observation from my T, one that I never thought about, I had the guilt lifted. Having any guilt lifted takes off a tremendous burden. I cried all through the session, but I left feeling so much better about myself. I have a long, long way to go, and I know it, but I finally see a light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you all for your wishes of good will!!!
BC
 
Keep at it BC, I have only been in therapy for a couple of weeks. It has already helped so very much. My wife and I go together. She has been the best through all of this mess.
Good luck!
 
It will change your life. My T is fantastic as well and very affirming of the bravery and courage it takes to deal with this crap. Yours sounds like he's cut from the same cloth. Isn't it great to tell someone and there is no judgement...only an understanding of the pain? It's a lot of work...five months for me and it is still hard, but so worth it.
Love
Paul
 
bc,

I am so happy to hear your news. Having a good T you can trust makes ALL the difference. It's natural to be nervous and stressed the first few times, and as you are able to take it your T will push you from time to time. But as you can already see, it's so great to know you are with someone who will listen to everything and never judge you. It's like being released from a dungeon.

Much love,
Larry
 
Good for you BC; I hope every session is as insightful for you!
 
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