Keith:
I get angry when I hear stories of abuse too; I can hardly listen to or read about them in the media sometimes, but I try to anyway. Reading about them here, with fellow male survivors, is for me therapeutic. Maybe for you, too?
I've decided this is one of those things that its good & natural to be angry about. but as Jake said, it's easy to just dissociate from it all, not want to think about it.
What I'm trying to learn is constructively channeling that anger toward things like self-improvement, helping other survivors, and working against further sexual abuse of anyone ever.
To do that, I think its important to get my anger out in the open, talk about it, especially with fellow survivors, especially these fellas here.
In other words, I think you're on the right track!
In fact, Keith, I think your anger and how you're already dealing with it just by your reply to Jake demonstrates a maturity beyond your years (whatever your exact age is) and a maturity beyond the years of many people way beyond you in years!
I blocked it out becuz it was too painful for me then but that was me. I'm glad, painful as it must be for you, that you're dealing with your abuse now while you're young, as The Dean said. And I reiterate what he said about being safe too. We're here for you man. Being here for each other is, well, what we're here for!
Wuame