Grr (MAY TRIGGER!)

[crisispoint]

I was, and still am a little, in a great mood this afternoon. Now, however, I'm feeling angry.

Not just anger. The psychotic rage has returned. As if I want to find a perp and bash their face into a bloody pulp.

Times like this, I feel as if I've lost my humanity. It's not ever "Frank," my alter who symbolizes righteous violent indignation. It's me. The "human" me. The "good" me.

I'm afraid of losing that.

Scot

 

[Lloydy]

Scot
there is a positive thing though, you recognise what's going on, so you can deal with it properly.
Which I'm sure you will.

Rage is OK, we just have to learn to use it rather that let it use us,

Dave

 

[Rustam]

Scot

I feel like a complete sadist when I really feel my anger, I was shocked that harmless, nice me could dream such dreams and think such horrifying thoughts. The anger is proportionate to what happened to us, it is a normal human reaction to such abnormal horror. When it bubbles up I try to express it physically to discharge it. It was always there, I try now not to turn it on myself.


Rustam.