Grooming
roadrunner
Registrant
Just to second what Darrel is saying. By the age of 12 I was so utterly groomed that there was nothing I would refuse to do with the abuser and no way I would refuse his orders to show up for what I knew would be more abuse.
I hated what was happening and loathed what I thought I had become, but just as in Darrel's case, when it was all over I missed him. I was heartbroken and thought he had rejected or abandoned me. I felt guilty and even more worthless.
I hope we can all see what's going on here. And abused kid quickly descends into a VERY dark place emotionally, a state of despair and worthlessness that seems to be unending and bottomless in its horror. But he is powerless against it, and even if he finally discovers some way to make things stop, the result may well be simply to transfer him to another domain of hurt and confusion.
We were not to blame, not for ANY of it.
Much love,
Larry
I hated what was happening and loathed what I thought I had become, but just as in Darrel's case, when it was all over I missed him. I was heartbroken and thought he had rejected or abandoned me. I felt guilty and even more worthless.
I hope we can all see what's going on here. And abused kid quickly descends into a VERY dark place emotionally, a state of despair and worthlessness that seems to be unending and bottomless in its horror. But he is powerless against it, and even if he finally discovers some way to make things stop, the result may well be simply to transfer him to another domain of hurt and confusion.
We were not to blame, not for ANY of it.
Much love,
Larry