grateful today

[markgreyblue]

hi guys,

i haven't posted just a hi to everybody in a while - so part of this post is to say "hello!"

I am feeling grateful right now - I don't know the germaine quality this has -

but I am experiencing a peacefulness - I think it's a self acceptance thing - I
have been able to think more and more about life issues -

relationships - my lack of them - in the romantic sense - and workwise too -

I have been real avoidant - in some senses - and instead become enraptured and just musing on the qualities of where I walk and what I see -

in some senses - it's a great time -but also right now - I seriously want to start selling some things - to develop some assets -

Frankly - I want some easy times too -
Sorry - I know I am not suppposed to say that -

I want my work to be easy sometimes -
and also I feel - I want it to be challenging -
I have hunger - and yet - I want it also
to be something I can excel at rather than being like - stuffing a porcupine in a purse made of stocking material -



it's wild - am gettinghungry to be there now - at work - and the moment here at home knowing what I have to do - and maybe feeling the permission and self tolerance to go for it - how to engage it all - and not spin - out of control -

feels - well - just good - nice - happy with some nerves about things -

happy and not real drama

I hope you fellas are enjoying classic spring weather where you are - it's sunny here -

and the bulbs are getting ready to bloom -
in 4 days I think - !

hey where's dwf??



peace - mgb

 

[roadrunner]

Mark,

It sounds very much like you are saying this: I want my life to be serene but exciting, successful and happy but challenging as well, joyful but realistic.

Sounds like you want a life that is uniquely yours because it reflects your dreams and your hard work. That's not a bad ideal to aim for bro.

Much love,
Larry

 

[markgreyblue]

thanks Larry!