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not sur ewhat to say, how to say it. just think going crayy.

leosahh
 
Leosha,

Man we all go crazy from time to time. The best thing we can do is live through it and learn from it. What is making you go crazy? Is their anything that we/ I can do to help you my brother?


lots of love, Nathan
 
Leo,

I hear you. You're not going crazy. You're still coming here and reaching out.

Gonna PM you. Hang tight, bro. I'm here. I care.

Peace and love,

Scot
 
total lost trust now. fel nothing with work agin. fel like shold just total go way, not care of no one or tust no one agin. hate him, hate them, hate us.
 
Leo - I hear your anger, hurt, disappointment - quite a bad way to feel. It feels like you lost trust, it feels like you need to go away....but notice "it feels like". I'm glad you're talking about 'your feelings' because that's healthy. If you talk out your feelings, you won't act them out (self injury, hurt yourself, suicide, etc.). Keep talking to those you DO trust...although you FEEL there is no one to trst, I believe there are a few folks (i.e. Susanna? for one) you can trust and talk to. I'm sure there are others here you can still trust?

Big hurts and betrayals pain deep within. But I hope you can get beyond this episode because there are so many others out there that are pulling for you!!!

((hugs)) Howard
 
Hi L!!!

I know you are a great guy! Your anger and disappointment are totally understandable. BUT - it looks to me like the anger is at them!!! I know exactly thr truth of what you are feeling. I am sonetimes there myself. The anger is very real and important in it's truth - from and at them!!

It doesn't sound like you are or need to be angry at yourself... You are making a diference in teh way you are doing your work! I know that! Remember - you have veery right to your anger and frustration. Be good to yourself. You deserve that!

Asher
 
Originally posted by Leosha:
not sur ewhat to say, how to say it. just think going crayy.

leosahh
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Leosha,

I know the feeling, and it's crappy. Just a few things, in case they might apply to your case.

First, a therapist told me something 10 years ago that I so often forget. You reminded me of it, fortunately. I'll try to get it right.

"Are you perhaps trying to make sense out of something that makes no sense?"

Maybe you spend a lot of time trying to make sense out of what happened to you. I've spent countless hours doing the same thing. Well, there's no use in wearing yourself out doing that, or judging yourself as crazy for not getting it to make some kind of sense.

Sense doesn't enter into it. It's like trying to understand Adolph Hitler with a rational mind. There's no way to get there from here, because the problem was all his.

On the other hand, if you're observing your own body and mind reactions to what happened, you are probably seeing the NORMAL human reactions to such extreme teatment.

There are books on trauma, and they foretell the same common effects of trauma on 99% of the people who go through it. Many people improve in time, though they usually think they never will. The shock waves are real and need to pass. I hope that's what happens for you.

I've understood the gist of everything I've read of yours so far, if that gives you a reality check. We all need those in this particular area of treatment. This abuse stuff will rattle your head for sure.

Regards,

Tribear
 
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