Going Back/ Irrational Beliefs
This week is a strange week for me. For the first time in my life I am going back to things that I left behind in panic.
For starters this morning I am going back to the sales job I had when we first moved here. I left three months ago because I couldn't take the crazy people that worked there. To make a long story short...I wound up speaking to my former manager and he pointed out that there will always be strange people in life and we just have to deal with it. That made a lot of sense to me and since I missed the work...and the sales seen here isn't pretty and it is a really good sales job...I start today at 10AM.
The I decided this week to start posting here again. I realized that my journey goes on if I post here or not. I left a bit because I was angry with another member, but realized that is silly. We are all adults here trying to heal and conflict is inevitable. I'm a big boy (as I keep reminding myself) and should be able to deal with someone not liking me.
I also started getting involved with one of my hobbies again and even joined an online group to participate in.
At the same time all my irrational beliefs are going crazy. My stomach is tight...I am nervous..I am paranoid that this new job is just playing a trick on me to try and get me back for leaving..and I am also nervous that my previous job wont pay me for the last two weeks when I quit..so I am calling in sick for the next two days just to make sure...but this of course causes more angst.
I am going through it all the same, but man my nerves are shot. I just wanted to post here and hope a few people could send some good vibes my way.
Thanks for reading.
P.S. I am obligated by the code of the half-geeks to post the following: Spiderman 2 ROCKS! Thank you.
For starters this morning I am going back to the sales job I had when we first moved here. I left three months ago because I couldn't take the crazy people that worked there. To make a long story short...I wound up speaking to my former manager and he pointed out that there will always be strange people in life and we just have to deal with it. That made a lot of sense to me and since I missed the work...and the sales seen here isn't pretty and it is a really good sales job...I start today at 10AM.
The I decided this week to start posting here again. I realized that my journey goes on if I post here or not. I left a bit because I was angry with another member, but realized that is silly. We are all adults here trying to heal and conflict is inevitable. I'm a big boy (as I keep reminding myself) and should be able to deal with someone not liking me.
I also started getting involved with one of my hobbies again and even joined an online group to participate in.
At the same time all my irrational beliefs are going crazy. My stomach is tight...I am nervous..I am paranoid that this new job is just playing a trick on me to try and get me back for leaving..and I am also nervous that my previous job wont pay me for the last two weeks when I quit..so I am calling in sick for the next two days just to make sure...but this of course causes more angst.
I am going through it all the same, but man my nerves are shot. I just wanted to post here and hope a few people could send some good vibes my way.
Thanks for reading.
P.S. I am obligated by the code of the half-geeks to post the following: Spiderman 2 ROCKS! Thank you.