Goal 1 achieved

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Well, as many of you have suggested, oh so subtly :rolleyes: , I had my first appt with a Psychiatrist today. I had scheduled one before I even came here, but it didn't happen through no fault of mine. I just turned around made damn sure I got another one.

I was ready to talk. Or so I thought. It took me almost five minutes to get out why I was there. But I did it. And for the next forty-five minutes, every sordid, ugly detail I had hidden was brought up. I cried a little (thank God I didn't blubber!) and hurt a lot, but I did it. I even told him up front I didn't trust him.

There are no more secrets. It was harder than telling you guys to tell him face to face. But when I was done, he simply said "I believe you, Marc". That was it. I totally lost it. I know you guys have said it too, but to look at a live human being and actually hearing those words was something I was never sure I would hear. Finally, SOMEBODY said I believe you. To my face. That's all he said. Until I could get myself together.

He told me he wanted me on some meds, but he also said they were a band-aid, not a cure. That was the other thing I was afraid of. That they would pat me on the head say take these and all will be well. I don't like the idea of meds, but I'm going to follow his instructions.

Now I realize that I have to have a therapist too (didn't know they are not always the same). He insisted on it. Like I was going to object! So I am making that appointment on Monday.

I know I put a lot of crap out here over the last week. But I had no choice. It was a rope for me to hang on to until I could actually start the work itself. So I used you for that. And I am grateful you carried me through.

So now I have taken the first tangible step. And I got my first lollipop.

Peace,

Marc
 
:D

Once the faucet is open, the pressure goes away, doesn't it?

I know, not completely. But it's the first step. And Marc, trust me, it DOES get better.

It ain't the end, not by a LONG shot, but it's the end of the beginning.

The road gets more level. Bumpy to be sure, but not the great huge hill you saw.

I'm very proud of you, my brother. You need anything, I'm here.

Peace and love (and why can't I see you at the top of the screen? :confused: :) )

Scot
 
:) :) :) :) :) Today is a five smiley day. Congrats Marc.
 
Marc,
I'm glad you had a good session with your psychologist, its a great feeling after telling someone face to face. I had the same trouble, I just couldn't say it. I knew that this person was a professional but I guess I felt like if I didn't say it it wouldn't be real. But it is real, and I did say it and it felt great.

Congrats, I'm here for you man, and

I BELIEVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jason
 
Marc,

That is a big step forward, you are on your way. Forward.
My phychiatrist was the first person I told, basically because he was the first to ask. My therapist was the second for the same reason. I should have done that years (and years) before. Better late than never.

Journey well,
Bill
 
Way to go Marc! Keep coming back, we need people like you around here. Stories like yours makes me want to take that step too.
 
Marc,To say what happened to someone else cannot be compared to anything.It is a gut wrenching like no other.I was 40 ,28 yrs. after Iwas molested before it was spoken.It was 6 yrs later when I finally started dealing with it.Deal now Marc,keep the healing going.You are not alone.What you did today helped more people than you can know.////////////////facewhatyoucanasyoucanbutfaceit
 
Marc,
Congratulations on making that hard first step! I am proud of you, my brother. I believe you! I am sad it happened to you, but you can get through this. I believe in you!
Casey
 
Marc, my brother and my friend, I am so proud of you I could bust! Our shoulders are always here to lean on...as yours has been there for me when I needed it. Again, I am so proud of you, man. Well All right, then!

Philip
 
Marc,
There are no more secrets.
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Doesn't that part feel so much better?

Congratulations, Marc, you took a big step. Things do get better because you're making it so.

Thanks,

Joe
 
Great news, Marc. And I really like what you said about the rope because it seems we all do that at times.

We throw ropes for ourselves and each other to hang on to.

The best thing is, when you have a lot of ropes all together, you make nets, and rope ladders; Places where you're caught safely, and places where you climb back up.

That's a great image for what we have here; Safety nets and ladders- Lifelines all over the place.

Thanks for reminding me.
 
You should be proud of yourself! I remember walking around for a week before getting my med filled at the drug store. I had taken been taking with a therapist and the meds help me cope with sll the things I was unloading. It was enpowering to help myself. Good luck! :)
 
Marc
isn't it a wonderful feeling when the person you tell doesn't recoil in horror ?
And it's gets better Marc, every time you tell it the 'secret' gets less.

I'm proud of you !

Dave
 
A really wise step Marc. Feelings can jump all over the place, but at least here we all understand and can support you in the bad and the good.

Peace!

Bob
 
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Marc,

I know I'm posting this rather late, but oh, well, better late than never. Telling another person face to face is an enormously difficult thing to do(or at least it was for me), although it was inevitable in my case. I experienced a flashback during a session with my therapist when we were talking about something else :rolleyes: ! I found that once the secret was out(and I didn't even know it was there) that the poison began to drain.

Good for you, Marc. Let the healing begin.

Tom
 
Marc; Well here I am again late as usual. Wow. It is out. The dirty little secret of your Perp. And the P said. Marc I believe you. Sure you got emotional. Three things happened Marc.
1. He listened 2.He believed and 3. In his mind you are a strong man that needs help and is setting about doing it the right way.

It is like lancing a boil Marc. No more hiding for the perps.

God I am so proud of you and so very happy you did come back.

I am also glad that you thought of the rope as a life line. That means so much to all of us here. It is called trust and to be trusted his food for the soul
 
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