Getting Down

[23yrsofpain]

Its been a little while since I posted last time. I wanted to thank you all for the support you have given me.
When the truth came out to my wife, I felt a great weight been lifting off me, and was determined not to let this effect me, and be strong I will get through it.
Well its been a hard month or so, I feel like doing nothing and my drive to make my business successful is gone, I feel I am a empty shell of a person. Sometimes it just hurts, I feel if something goes wrong in my life or business it is so hard to pick yourself back up. I love what I do, but the everyday stress of business and life get me down, and I just want to crawl into bed, or under a rock hoping things will just go away. They don't and just get worse, I know that but its so hard not to run away.
I met with a therapist this past Wednesday, She is very nice and she has experience with this sort of stuff. I just know I am still at the beginning of this to the road to recovery and put my life back together.
I know life isn't easy, Life is hard and will always be hard, but sometimes I wish I just could get a F****** break every now and then.
I just hate what has happened to me, then and what it is doing to me now.
Andrew

 

[The Seeker]

Andrew,

I am no therapist, but in times like these, it seems best to go a day at a time. Or even, hour by hour if you need to. The point is to keep going, and as you heal the better days grow in number and string together. Then, maybe with work, you realize you are doing okay.

I am sorry you feel bad right now. Remember to love yourself and give yourself permission to stumble now and again. Hang in there. I will think good thoughts for you.

Peace to you.


John

 

[roadrunner]

Andrew,

I think John's comments are spot on. Give yourself a break and don't expect so much so fast. It does take time, and it is important not to judge yourself harshly for things that would be exactly the same for many other survivors.

As you say, it is important to resist the temptation to run away and hide from all this. The first stages are rough because there is so much to think about and cope with, and for many of us it is all so new and unpredictable. A lot of times I just get so fed up with rediscovering myself - I want someone to shout out "will the real Larry please stand up".

But hang in there bro, this IS the right path to healing. In fact, it is the only path.

Much love,
Larry