The pain beneath the surface of SSA, as you say, is manifest in many parts of our lives, not simply how we act out sexually. It often preoccupies us because the heart of the trauma was sexual. But the experience distorted our lives in many ways. I applaud your intention to explore these "broader pains." This is ultimately what the healing journey involves. Needless to say, the trauma impacted our capacity to build and sustain secure and satisfying relationships... so it impacts how we engage in work, in friendship and in intimate relationships. It was honestly quite painful to recognize that my early abuse left me incapable of being safely in myself or in any moment in life... so I operated from inside terror, patching together a life that was loaded with pain and confusion. I wrote about it in a thread I titled 47 Years of Making it Up. I look forward to how you unpack your version of all this Ed... write what your "heart may feel."