Forever Broken
I just need to let it out as it flows from my head to my hands.
9 years since I stopped fighting the pain and memories and sought therapy. I left therapy 2 years ago feeling so happy with all my progress and looking forward to life and in the last couple of months the PTSD has come on again and each week it gets more intense. Is this it? is this what I have got to look forward to? I'm living my life now forever broken patching up the cracks and never fully having relief?
I feel lonely but I don't want to bring anyone into this mess, I don't want to have to explain to someone who will never truly understand, I don't want to feel bad for having PTSD at the wrong time. Alone, broken and aging this is fucked up.
9 years since I stopped fighting the pain and memories and sought therapy. I left therapy 2 years ago feeling so happy with all my progress and looking forward to life and in the last couple of months the PTSD has come on again and each week it gets more intense. Is this it? is this what I have got to look forward to? I'm living my life now forever broken patching up the cracks and never fully having relief?
I feel lonely but I don't want to bring anyone into this mess, I don't want to have to explain to someone who will never truly understand, I don't want to feel bad for having PTSD at the wrong time. Alone, broken and aging this is fucked up.