Flashbacking! (sorry, this is rough and may trigger)

[TeeJayUU]

Last night while laying in bed with my wife, she asked what was wrong (sometimes I HATE it when she can sense things ).

I explained that I was watching a "slide show" of numerous SA "experiences" all through my childhood and teenage years. I started to cry and told her that I could actually taste him! And I could. Then I literally started gagging as I relived him forcing himself in my mouth over and over.

The good news is this only lasted about 30 minutes and I was able to reground myself and calm things back down with the help of my wife.

I am sorry if tis is too graphic or triggers anyone, I just needed to say it! Thaks for listening and being here.

Marc said in his last posting that he feels the love coming fromthis site, I MUST agree! The brotherhood and frinedship and love and support has been incredible! Thanks!

PEACE and LOVE!

TJ

 

[outis]

TJ,

I'm sorry that you went through that. Flashbacks can assault all of our senses and seem so damn real when they're gripping our minds. Bedtime is a bad time for flashbacks for me. I remember one time remarking to my wife as we turned off the lights, "Let's see what's playing tonight." (Yeah, I like being sarcastic.)

I'm glad the support you get here helps you through it. Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I had continued in denial much longer. That's a thought as scary as any flashback.

Hope you have a better night tonight.

Joe

 

[crisispoint]

TJ,

Well, as far as graphic is concerned, sometimes it needs to be said as plainly as possible. After all, that's how you LIVED it.

I'm so sorry you had to go through that, but yo're right. Knowing there are others who've gone thru the same things as far as recovery goes helps. And this place (you included ) has helped me move beyond it.

The horror of what we all went through is the worst. I think, worse than the physical memories, are the emotional ones. We were either too young to know about such things or forced to do things we didn't want to under the most terrible of threats.

My friend, you have a wonderful wife. We should all have such people in our lives. I hope things go easier for you tonight.

Peace and love, my brother.

Scot

 

TJ,

I guess what I think are flashbacks maybe aren't. I have never been seeing things as long as you talk about.

But I know this, my brother. That you are on the high road to recovery. And I know that your wife is there with you.

Some of these flashbacks (or in my case, maybe revalational scenes of what I forgot) are very intense. I've always been standing when they hit. And the intesity makes me almost pass out.

Just know I am here for you my bro. Like you have told me to call you if I need to, reach out to me also. I am always here for you.

Love and peace, TJ.

Marc

 

[Lloydy]

I found this site the other day, and the information on it is clear and concise.

https://www.psych.org/public_info/ptsd.cfm

I also posted some links on PTSD over on the Family & Friends forum a short while ago that are good.

Dave