First time - therapist

[InjunE]

Well for the first time, in so far as this subject and it's specialty goes. I called a shrink tonight. Please don't get me wrong, this won't be the first time I have seen a shrink, but this will be the first time I will see a shrink who's specialty is what we think about on a daily basis. Who knows what they are talking about and won't break down on me. I feel too exposed. To be honest, even though there is little in the world I do fear, I am scared shitless. I am supposed to tell this guy, who i have never met, who knows about the stuff I have been through, my specific problems. I am actually scared. What do I say or do with someone who knows all about my stuff? I don't mean to rant, but this time my fear has the best of me.

 

I can identify with your fear. I felt the same thing when I made my first appointment.

But if I can share something with you, it would be this. You will find the therapists who deal with this particular trauma to be compassionate and validating.

Trust me when I tell you that the therapist is very much aware of how hard this is for you.

I can't alleviate your fear, but I can tell you that when you leave that office, you may go through a variety of feelings. But the most important one will be that you finally faced this fear and lived through it.

I'm proud of you for taking this step!

Peace,

Marc

 

[Leosha]

InjunE,

I am not sure what positives I can tell you, other then you are the one who needs to have control in therapy. You can speak as much or as little as you can until you can do more. Please remember that. This therapist will not be expecting you to come in there immediately telling all details of things and being fully open about personal thoughts. Please keep yourself safe, and go at the pace you feel comfortable with only. I wish you luck and wish you well.

leosha