First Time Caller

First Time Caller

John Oarc

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I am new here and this is my first post. I don't know what to say except I am greatful for this site and all of you guys, I know I am going to be able to continue my recovery with your help.

My story: I am married with children, 40 years old, I was molested, age 9, by a friends father. It only happenned once, and I never went back. For two weeks I held it in but I finally got the courage to tell my father, and he told my mother.

Stat's Divorced parents living with mother just another statistic right.

She took me to the police and I told my story, I felt like no one would believe me and went back to school to face the world with this fear that everyone thought it was my fault. My parents did not take me to counseling nor did they ever talk about the molestation and it left me feeling scared and alone. To add insult to injury my father exposed me to pornographic material at a very young age and that is another childhood trauma I have had to deal with. The rest is history. I have been in counseling for about 5 years and I only go about once a year now, like a check up. I am a survivor but I still struggle with little things. Fear, anxiety seem to hang around most of all but I am working on all of it and I have hope once again.

I would just like to say Hello to everyone and also say thanks to Malesurvivor for the site.
 
John,

Welcome to Male Survivor. I am sure you will find a lot of support here and gain much from what goes on here.

I would urge you not to downplay your abuse because it only happened once. That is plenty enough to traumatize a child and leave him with a lot of confusing feelings, such as the ones you mention.

Much love,
Larry
 
John - welcome here! I hope that you find the support you need here, I know I have.

Best wishes ...Rik
 
John,

Welcome, it is my hope that you will find as much support and healing here as I have.

Hang in there my friend

Darrel
 
Hi John, welcome to MaleSurvivor as Larry says it does not matter how many times abuse took place the effects are exactly the same. Take your time here, ask questions when you feel ready, you will get all the support in the world here as I have.

Kirk
"Lets take this bull by the horns and swing it about a bit"
 
Welcome aboard John. Yes this is a really cool place isn't it?

I was 9 years old when it happened to me too, (I'm 36 now). I didn't know what to do back then so I clamed up and stayed silent. I wish I told like you did because I know that my parents would have done everything to help me, just like yours SHOULD have.
 
Thanks for all the support, I am glad to know you guys are out there. I wonder how many of us are really out there all over the world. I have read some stats on it but the strange one was how many a perp can molest in a lifetime, 354 children is what I think it said. That could have been a combination of male and female victims I am not sure. I am just glad to know I am not alone, and with statistics like that I am sure there are many of us hurting and healing. I just wish we could get more support from the legal system.

Thanks everyone.
 
I just wish that parents wouldn't have kids unless they're going to protect them by talking to them about SA and how to prevent it. We wouldn't need a legal system if parents were watching their kids and knowing who they're with and what they're doing.

Well, ok it might still happen in this fantasy world that I just conjured up in the preceding paragraph, but it sure as Hell wouldn't happen as often.
 
I am very protective of my children because of what happenned to me, in some cases I am not sure if I am doing it right because I feel I might be over protective. I have talked to them about what to look for and how to handle themselves but I am not sure if I am doing enough. I dont want to scare them so much that they grow up thinking everyone will try to molest them, it has to be balanced. I can only pray and do what I can, I cant control everything in this life. I am glad that I finally know this.

John
 
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