Finding Neverland (*Triggers*)

Please take a moment, preferably lots of them to applaud yourself today! For choosing to heal & for helping others choose to heal.

My son thought a 36 HR. train ride with my ADD would be worth the risk if if was possible to win a car on the Oprah show, but I digress.

Our stories now have their voices; though, sometimes best consumed with soda crackers & gingerale. :eek:

I took some notes from the show & Al's comment, "How free do I want to be today?" resonated.

I also find it ironic, the survivors being under the microscope for changing their stories but the "alleged" predator's sister has a similar history.

Dr. Drew agrees with your analysis of parental neglect btw. U have some great insights.

I have to call you out on being sorry for taking up so much space. We have a right to take up space I've learned at WoR & TBO retreats. We have a right to not support the cultures of death we were raised in. We have a right to question those messages from the perpetrators & well meaning family. We have a right to embrace a culture of life. We have a right to live. We haven't outlived our usefulness. We deserve acknowledgement & compassion. We forge this path of rejecting dysfunction & pursuing functionability & for that I am most grateful.

Safe hugs, healthy love, & light...

<3 OIC
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"If I could start again, a million miles away, I would keep myself, I would find a way."
 
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seems that there are no emoji's on the new sight

Sending my love

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<3 Jeff

It does get better…….
Hi, Jeff :)

I suspect you are sad :( there are no emoji's. Perhaps even mad :mad:. But I have some good news :D! You'll find - perhaps to your surprise :eek: - that emoji's can be found in the smiley face icon above each post you write. So be cool :cool: and enjoy them!

Eirik
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I'm sorry to take up so much space and time
lapchinj/Jeff - never! This is a safe space and there is always time and space for all to share as much as they need to.

I am so sorry those many things happened to you. You are deserving of so much more. Of someone loving you, for you. Not abusing you, grooming you, and passing you around like a worthless play-toy. This documentary opened and reopened wounds in many of us. Perhaps it is time to allow them to get properly healed.

Be blessed, my brother!
 
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We have a right to take up space I've learned at WoR & TBO retreats. We have a right to not support the cultures of death we were raised in. We have a right to question those messages from the perpetrators & well meaning family. We have a right to embrace a culture of life. We have a right to live. We haven't outlived our usefulness. We deserve acknowledgement & compassion. We forge this path of rejecting dysfunction & pursuing functionability & for that I am most grateful.
Beautiful said, OIC! I couldn't agree more!!
 
Hey NC

With my last post I was just trying to show how much kids have problems because of parents that don’t give a shit like mine or just being overwhelmed with the people that have too much interest in our kids. It can be ansuperstar like MJ where they think it’s ok to do sleep overs.

I only found out that when I would run away from my parent’s house to a neighbor lady when I was 3 who I loved and my mother was happy to be rid of me I found a treasure trove of pictures that should never have been taken. This went on from the time I was 3 until my parents moved when I was 9.

Parents have to ask more questions. If something doesn’t look right then it might not be

Sending my love

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<3 Jeff



It does get better…….
 
Hey Eirik

Yeah, we have some good text options which we didn't have before but I'm sorry to say that the emoji hyroglifics that our neanderthal ancestors used in their text messages doesn't cut it today:(. I feel like I lost my pants:eek:

Sending my love

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<3 Jeff

It does get better…….
 
Hey Eric

Sorry to bother you but I cannot pay for my subscription. I enter my credit card and then it asks me to create a paypal account. I have a paypal account and when I enter it says no good if I delete the create Paypal account I cannot get trough to pay.

Fixed I guess. I don't know how I did it because I'm pretty fuck'd up at the moment.

Speak later. Sorry but at this time of night I'm too fuck'd up to think. Sorry for wasting your time

<3 Jeff
 
Hey Eric

Sorry to bother you but I cannot pay for my subscription. I enter my credit card and then it asks me to create a paypal account. I have a paypal account and when I enter it says no good if I delete the create Paypal account I cannot get trough to pay.

Fixed I guess. I don't know how I did it because I'm pretty fuck'd up at the moment.

Speak later. Sorry but at this time of night I'm too fuck'd up to think. Sorry for wasting your time

<3 Jeff
I'll have Nathan look at it. We've been tag-teaming some of the elements of the new site and the member donations section is something he is more familiar with than me. I know we can take credit cards even if the site doesn't give that option directly. I'll touch base and ask him to contact you, my friend.
 

MACH123

Registrant
It took my getting married to learn I didn't have to watch horror movies. My wife gave me permission. She said "why would you watch that?" I was warped permanently by some of that sh*t. I thought I "had to" because the other kids all said they did.

Now I know there's more stuff I can't watch than stuff I can. This is one of those.
 
hey Strangeways,

You mentioned a blog called “You Belong To Me”. There has been a long couple of years that I’ve been fighting fighting with my T that all the shit I went through was not my fault. For example parties, dates with johns, porn and possibly a snuff movie. A list that stretched from the age of 8 until I walked away from the game at 24. All of that while I was with papasan (my judo instructor and surrogate father). The last episode was me and my gym teacher who I thought was my fault horsing around in the showers.

It might have started that way but when I mentioned I was having sex with him in the showers papasan started renting me out to him. I now realize what happened. Papasan would pick me up after school. After I told papasan about the gym teacher and me i saw papasan start talking to the gym teacher when high school was letting out at the end of the day. Soon after that besides him having me in the showers I ended up being with him for a couple of hours once or twice a week. Papasan picked me up after the date.

I realize now that I belong to him. All those years he controlled everything I did. I hope I broke that control. I finally don’t belong to him. I still love him and we did a lot sightseeing and going places. But I know who was responsible all those years of selling my ass. For me this scenario with the gym teacher through 4 years of high school belonged to papasan.

Sending my love. Now I’ll go read this blog. Thanks

<3 Jeff
 
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