Final prep for the retreat!
I am making my final preparations for the hope springs retreat this weekend. I will be leaving my house in about 31 hrs to drive to the retreat site and I am looking forward to it. I spent the day shopping for a few basic things I have been needing to get but have put off because I hate buying clothes. I would rather buy movies or Cd's. lol. I have a sense of calm heading into the weekend as I am about to face what is very likely going to be one of the most life changing events of my adult life. I am looking forward to the weekend and being able to openly discuss my past and the CSA without having to feel like I am being judged or looked down upon by others because in my mind I think they think I am dirty.
I feel like I am going in with an open heart and an open mind. I am not real sure what to expect but I am ready fr something more then this. I sat in a group of friends tonight and one of them made the comment if someone is broken to send them to me because I will sit down and talk to them and he said usually by the time the person is done talking to me they have started to mend and that brought tears to my eyes. I have never really thought about it but the reason I can relate to those that are broken is because I have and am broken I am just mending myself on many different levels as I go through this journey called recovery. I feel like I am rambling again but hell this is my post and I will ramble if I want too lol. Oh yeah by the way I hate to use paragraphs when typing on forums of blogs lol. Just an FYI. Bottom line of this all is that I am encouraged heading into the weekend retreat and can not wait to get there Friday morning.
I feel like I am going in with an open heart and an open mind. I am not real sure what to expect but I am ready fr something more then this. I sat in a group of friends tonight and one of them made the comment if someone is broken to send them to me because I will sit down and talk to them and he said usually by the time the person is done talking to me they have started to mend and that brought tears to my eyes. I have never really thought about it but the reason I can relate to those that are broken is because I have and am broken I am just mending myself on many different levels as I go through this journey called recovery. I feel like I am rambling again but hell this is my post and I will ramble if I want too lol. Oh yeah by the way I hate to use paragraphs when typing on forums of blogs lol. Just an FYI. Bottom line of this all is that I am encouraged heading into the weekend retreat and can not wait to get there Friday morning.