Female abuse
Hi,
First thing i'd like to mention, is that in my lifetime, other than myself, i don't recall every meeting a suvivor, male or female who was abused by a woman. This is the first opportunity i've had to explore how being sexually assaulted by a female felt.
This is more about me feeling like she was my "girlfriend", after the assault. I was only 4, and yet it felt like a relationship...she was 17....this is and has casused massive confusion on my part.... The only memory i'm going to attach here, because it's relevant, is myself , at 4 years old, walking in on her and her boyfriend having sex. Is it possible that i really did have feelings of betrayal, like one might have with a cheating girlfriend in adult life?
I'm hoping someone can "shed some light" on this.... somehow, this perception of her assaulting me, as sick as it makes me feel, has always in my mind and heart granted her protection from of rage, betrayal and other feelings , that i might feel (or do feel?) if i actually perceived it as a violation of my body, heart, mind and soul
Thanks
Tony
First thing i'd like to mention, is that in my lifetime, other than myself, i don't recall every meeting a suvivor, male or female who was abused by a woman. This is the first opportunity i've had to explore how being sexually assaulted by a female felt.
This is more about me feeling like she was my "girlfriend", after the assault. I was only 4, and yet it felt like a relationship...she was 17....this is and has casused massive confusion on my part.... The only memory i'm going to attach here, because it's relevant, is myself , at 4 years old, walking in on her and her boyfriend having sex. Is it possible that i really did have feelings of betrayal, like one might have with a cheating girlfriend in adult life?
I'm hoping someone can "shed some light" on this.... somehow, this perception of her assaulting me, as sick as it makes me feel, has always in my mind and heart granted her protection from of rage, betrayal and other feelings , that i might feel (or do feel?) if i actually perceived it as a violation of my body, heart, mind and soul
Thanks
Tony