Feeling Sheepish
Hello,
I posted a good bit several weeks back then got swept up in a move and a job. I feel a little selfish right now, having come back to write my story again, but I hope someone is listening and might offer support.
First, I was really f*cking naive. I confronted my father and the rest of my family. While my mother was unusually supportive at first, my siblings seem to have decided I am simply confused. My stories long and the details are important but the most important part is this - I got sent to a shrink when I was six years old and when (as best as I can recall) the sexual abuse had already started. My whole life I was sent to shrinks or otherwise thought to be unreliable. As a result, my sibs seem to think I am not reliable. I can't do anything about that but I'm just at the bottom of the barrel. It took me decades to see and confront my father and to be brave and confident enough to do something about it. And the reaction has been devastating.
Has anyone else been through this, with siblings who were most likely not also abused? I'm finding it very difficult to go it alone right now. Fortunately I'm beginning to deal much more assertively again and have my first appointment with a new therapist tomorrow. In the meantime, any words are appreciated.
Best
I posted a good bit several weeks back then got swept up in a move and a job. I feel a little selfish right now, having come back to write my story again, but I hope someone is listening and might offer support.
First, I was really f*cking naive. I confronted my father and the rest of my family. While my mother was unusually supportive at first, my siblings seem to have decided I am simply confused. My stories long and the details are important but the most important part is this - I got sent to a shrink when I was six years old and when (as best as I can recall) the sexual abuse had already started. My whole life I was sent to shrinks or otherwise thought to be unreliable. As a result, my sibs seem to think I am not reliable. I can't do anything about that but I'm just at the bottom of the barrel. It took me decades to see and confront my father and to be brave and confident enough to do something about it. And the reaction has been devastating.
Has anyone else been through this, with siblings who were most likely not also abused? I'm finding it very difficult to go it alone right now. Fortunately I'm beginning to deal much more assertively again and have my first appointment with a new therapist tomorrow. In the meantime, any words are appreciated.
Best
